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Raymond I hate being without you, The guys in my phone were from the time we stop talking, I want my bestfriend back damnnnnn& you talk mean stuff about me on Facebook..., yes I have niggas in line to eat my ass but it's nothing more !! You know I'm not a thot I did that to make u mad cause u talked about me on Facebook. Raymond I'll kill zhaira I'll shoot her in her head & the bitch you fw on jojo life I will. I love you daddy please talk to me, you kno what hurt me the most...is when you said you was about to marry someone and you were talking about that girl like your not over her that hurt so bad cause you know I wouldn't deal with you if you still had feelings for her. I hate that your the first of my everything sometimes idk I'm just thinking out loud, you love when I get like this just to say you tbh you dgaf & try to play me but I'll rather tell you that I love you even if we're not going to be together like you said. I love you so much I just can't explain. Don't text me no mean stuff back nor some petty stuff cause I'm dead ass mad at myself. Ok I love you again & again, k I love you I'm falling asleep typing this & only reason that went down like that is bc I feel like we not being fair with each other you got my name as bm & I got you as daddy...that's not right & then you love me in message & shading me & entertaining other girls on fb. Raymond when are you going to let them go? You have someone that is ready to spend they life with you even as a man you feel like your not ready financial wise & etc but I been thought about all that how we should save our money & get a place even if it's cheap..like stuff like that, like its a habit to you fucking with these girls my phone messages I sent to you is how your phone look & social media so don't try to be all angry with me when I do you how u do me , but I'm just a bm right 😔 & hopefully you'll see I'm more than that. A women knows when a man is doing her how he did the last girl he was with & that sucks so bad Raymond cause I won't ever speak & redo something I've done with my last guy with you that's not even love, I'm in my feelings deep but I just wanna tell you not getting on you but helping you. Your going to always be in my head every day & night together or not I love you I'm not begging to be back with so don't try to play me..I'm just saying as a grown women I love you & I'm sorry because that was wrong. Everything is going to get better I'm praying & ill always be here, I'm sorry for the times I downed you bc I don't really kno hoe it feels to be in your shoes but I be hurt so bad, Just forgive me Raymond I'm sorry I've been hurt by you so many times I feel like dogging niggas is fun to me like I'm becoming you or something, we still a team ok. I've been so sad without you I've been listening to pnb the one since I last seen you, u may think idgaf sometimes I always care, I just want you back in my life & don't be mad and disappear again I'm sorry dont take this as a weakness, mmmm nvm you are my weakness but don't play me laughing & stuff I'm sorry again talk to me when you ready I Love you so much goodnight