Notes

this little "story" is going to be similar to the last one. from the beginning of Jane's life she always had problems. She could never focus and she learned things a little slower then some of the other kids sometimes. Shes been on so many medications for ADD that her mom has a grocery bag full of her pill bottles. little side note her parents weren't really good for each other. Maybe they were at some point but not anymore. they would fight many times a day everyday. the fights were 90% about me. that made me feel terrible. Even at 10 she could tell that they would be better off separated but i would never tell them that. When she was younger she was afraid of her parents. She was afraid of being hit, it didn't look like she was sometimes but she was. Hearing all the fighting about her made her feel bad about herself. sometimes it made her wonder why god made her the way that he did. She thought maybe she had done something terrible in a past life that made her deserve all this bad stuff. as she got older all the stuff her parent said was starting to sink in...she believed almost every word of it. Her parents called her a stupid dumb bitch. They said she was fat and constantly told her they were going to not let her eat as much. Jane didn't know most of this wasn't true. Her reasoning for believing it was her parents were saying it, if they say it then it must be true. They were only saying it because they were mad but once she heard it she couldn't let it go. Her parents would apologize to her...but when you say your sorry then do the same thing again it becomes clear that you don't care about the other person and you are just saying sorry to make yourself feel better. She began to hate life. She was already hating like at 11 and wanting to to be over as soon as possible. [PASTE IN PARTS OF ORIGINAL STORY]. One day she wanted to have someone o talk to so she looked for chating apps on her iPad. she found one that looked good it was called Chit Chat. that was probably her first mistake. From there people would message her asking for her kik. She didn't know what kik was she quickly downloaded the messaging app kik and made a kik with her Fake name of Ashley. She was smart enough to not use her real name. from there guys asked for pictures and she always said no. but one guy wanted to play truth or dare. he dared her to take a picture of her in her bra with face. Jane should have just said no but she didn't do that. she went took the picture and sent it. second worst mistake she had made so far. At this time she was not really depressed at all. She was not worried about the picture at all. she started to get more people and sending more pictures. it was already going bad in less then a week she had 12 guys she was sending pictures to. The 12 people practically doubled when those people told their friends about her. It was good at first but eventually it got boring so she went on omegle. That was worse she was doing stuff for up to 50 people each time her parents left her home alone. She would do whatever they asked her to do. She did this for at least 2 years. She did some M/s and some DD/lg and only stopped when she started to get embarrassed doing it. She would get so scared sometimes. she was scared that the people who threatened her that day would post her picture they took during the video chat on omegle. it made her physically sick because she was so worried. she was awake at 1-3 am throwing up some nights because of it...She would always lie about her age instead of saying that she was 11 or 12 she would say she was 15. She wished she could go back and stop her from finding the app Chit Chat. When she tells people about her past they judge her for it. Some people wont understand that its the past and its over some people don't care and understand shes not like that anymore. She just wants to move on but every now and then someone who knows about it will mention it. Her bf/Fiancé doesn't like her past because it makes him feel not as important to her. He very raley mentions it.