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program technically rigorous, lots of strezss and hard classes, what if can't do it then wasted all that time money and energy and what if i get the degree and put myself through it and then can't even do anything with it, don't even know if i like the program and material anymore, too easy to mess up and stressful

try to make things as easy on myself as possible so i can get through it, take classes over the summer or at home and transfer, take classes here and then transfer credits to get degree from alfred? and vice versa

putnam seems like a very tough guy, need to work on myself more but classes make it even harder for me to be mentally healthy

worry about somehow making it all the way to senior year, losing scholarship and failing mock trial, internship and not being able to graduate, ruin reputation and lose all the money, all for nothing, not strong or smarrt enough, waste time, money, could be doing something easier or that i like better, better for myslef at home