Notes

30/01/25

INTRO.

Hi, my name's Jade. I tried this before like a few seconds ago and it got rid of my progress so yeah! ill be logging my feelings here for a bit because its good to get your feelings out or to talk about them, even if its on an online note book thing.

WHAT HAPPENED IN SCHOOL.

ill talk about today. (also i don't care about spelling rn). Anyways. today at school we had to get our vaccine done for the HMPV thing or whatever it is. but i have cuts on my arm from self harm and stuff like that, so i panicked and told Rosanne (my classroom assistant) about it. BAD IDEA! i have to go to counciling now apartently. i don't know when but i'm not really ready for it. like i can't even talk to my own mum about it and i have to talk to a councilor? FUCK. THAT. its bull shit! i don't want to talk to a woman ive never met befaore about my self harm adiction! what else do i have to talk about? how i vape? how i occasionally drink? no, i wont. i was so in the moment and panicking that i said yes to it and that i would tell the truth. WHAT. THE. FUCK. JADE?! why the fuck would i do that?! anyways the rest of the day was sound as fuck, i loved it. i love school not gonna lie. but when i was going to the spar with Aibhle and Ceadhla i realized that the nurses called my ma and then the principle will call my ma.

IN THE CAR.

Skip to in the car i tried to act like nothing happened and that it was a normal school day 'n' all, you know? DIDN'T WORK! we got out of the spar and out of that street, stuck in a bit of traffic and Mr Quinn (baldy bastard) calls my ma and tells her about it partly before he gets cut off, lmao. but anyways after that y ma shouts at me for doing it and that i could've got child servaces on our case if they were "fresh". like are you fucking serious? you don't shout at your kid that is struggling with self harm! that's fucked up lowkey. but other than that shes been really nice all day and all but she kept asking questions, like; "why did you do it?", "are you getting bullied?", "was it something that's happening in school?", "did something happen with me and daddy?" and the two biggest things of all!!! "what did you do it with? a knife? what was it?" (i told her it was blades from a sharpener) and the when we got home "Let me see your arm." WHAT?! SORRY AM I GOING DEAF OR DID SHE JUST WANT TO SEE MY SELF HARM?! WHAT THE FUCK??!! i mean at least she was supportive n all but what?!

TALKING.

always other than all that shit my head hurts right now and i'm mates with Aibhle and Noah again! i loved them two in year 8, they were my best friends, then me and Aibhle started dating, brokeup, got into a MASSIVE fight, ect ect. its behind is now so yeah! i'm mates with David and Corey now aswell and not Chloe.

CHLOE SITUATION.

that's a whole different situation tho so yeah. Basically me, Aibhle and Ceadhla all hate Leigha alot, i mean who doesn't? lol anyways shes a bitch (Leigha) and whatever, but this is about the Chloe situation right now. to be honest its not even a big deal. Leigha thinks i was ignoring Chloe (i wasn't) because i wasn't talking to her and i was with Aibhle and Ceadhla the whole day, but for fuck sakes, i'm aloud to have other mates (well apparently not) (TAKING A BREAK FOR A SECOND, DELETE THIS WHEN YOU COME BACK!)