Notes

Perhaps it is for the best, I've matured and changed as a person too. I would make different decisions now than the ones I made when I initially met you but why don't you give me the chance to express how I feel and say goodbye now that you have actually responded to me? I have lost family members, ran away from home, had arguments and disputes and for months I have tried to reach out to you through all these situations. I've mostly pulled through everything by myself.

Aw, that sucks, because I had all these different ideas to go and do laser tag, zorbing, paintballing, travelling, ride a hot air balloon, see concerts, hiking and lots of other activities once I get my life on track. I know all the good joints in Central too for the best bites to eat. I mean I'll respect your decision and let you move on but if I had to tell you the truth the friendship we did have would be way better if I knew you like that.

I guess I want the kind of friendship where I can have deep conversations and debates and I'm intellectually attuned to that person. I prefer to get to know somebody, what type of character they are and learn something valuable from them more than just hooking up, I realized I have matured in the sense that I'm more interested in being steady and surrounding myself with people who are open minded with good personalities. I did make a few shallow decisions in the past but the good thing is I learnt from them.

You say you have lots of troubles, If you really think about it, the right people in your life should be pulling you through your troubles and supporting you, helping you to have fun and get in touch with old hobbies and aspects of your personality that you felt you transitioned from due to difficult events in your life or outgrew and when someone has you in their best interest, they will accept you through every transition you make, be it good or bad.

I guess it's because deep down I know my good qualities that would have come out if more people knew me better, If I made better decisions and they just had more opportunities and time for me to be able to see this for themselves and so I can do things that benefit their lives rather than things I regret, I also know what I am actually able to bring to the table as well, it kind of frustrates me to have to miss memories and people, accept it as a part of life and say goodbye.