Notes

I know this is a strange place to write this, but I couldn't think of anywhere else you wouldn't check... Okay so this is a LITTLE far in advance (30/4/16) but I've only just found out and the feelings are still raw, and it still hasn't quite sunken in.. I'm moving to South Hampton as you know, and if I remember/can keep my mouth shut, you will be reading this in about a years time, before I leave. Honestly Sarah, I have no idea where we'll be in a year. We could hate one another for all I know. But no matter what, I am going to tell you about this. I know you don't like feelings so WARNING many feelings about to happen.

You are not my friend, you haven't been my friend for a long time, simply because you are more than that, you are family. You are a sister to me. We've been through thick and thin an come out the other side. you are more family to me than my family. Without you I'd be nothing. Remember when you tried to kill yourself? If you had succeeded I'm not entirely sure I'd be here anymore. We have so many memories, hours and hours of fighting, laughing, tears, jokes, sarcasm. My life would not be the same if I hadn't met you. You understand me. You always say you are dead inside but you aren't, you are simply asleep. We may not be connected through blood, by we are connected by friendship and the hours we've spent together that have been nothing short of amazing. You make me smile through my tears, laugh away my heart break, you laugh at the stupid things I do and you're just pretty fucking crazy. I'd take a bullet for you and I'd do anything to show you just how beautiful you really are (no homo ;)) me moving away doesn't mean you won't be my sister, it doesnt mean I'm not coming back. You're never going to be 'just a memory' Sarah Jayne. You are going to be my maid of honor, my childrens godmother, the old lady who I bitch to about the noisy kids down the hall, the woman I get drunk with and spend hangovers curled up in bed eating popcorn and watching the films we watched before I left. You are my soul mate. (BTW this is not me proclaiming my undying love for you) I know you inside and out, as you me. I know I'm only moving across the country but It's never going to be the same without you. Never. I'm going to miss you so, so, so much you can't even begin to imagine. Ngl I'm crying my eyes out rn. I'm leaving everything I've ever known behind. But no matter what you will always be my sister and my soulmate
Ellen(duh)