Notes

My story is some what special, just know this. My heart is made of metal. I've been laughed at, made mad, just felt like crap. But I got a heart, a part of me that will help me fight hard. Know this Sarge, I've been through things, just kept up my guard. Afraid of what will happen, in only just a few seconds. But I made it, through hell and back. I've seen things no one wants to know, something they lack. I have missed things many people have. To me, I fight for what I lack. Special is what people call me. So to them I feel sorry. They've been treated like kings and queens, while go to school and take a mental beating. Since I was 8, depression gave me seedling of what I see. So diss me. Know the things I've wanted to do. Know the things I've been through. But show me what you said, before I put a gun to my brain, shoot it with lead. But no. I've got a life to live. Something you don't have is respect. I have it, that what makes us different. For me, its a god send. But to me, you are only hell bent.

This sinister life of mine, has nothing to do with my insides. I run from battle to hide, hoping to change the tide of war from the others to my side. My life is missing something, something I wish I had. My mind is going insane, its just making me mad. I've ran from stuff my whole life, I've stepped side to side just to make by. So what, people have done worse. What I've done isn't a talent, but it is a curse. No, this isn't a first. I wish to come by without having a thirst, for living. To live my life the way I want, so what. The wind is strong, blowing with a gust. Blowing by is my wishes. I wish to have what I must. But they tell me too bad. Isn't that sad. Just a simple wish I lay on my night stand. I'm walking in the water, my feet in sand. Walking deep into ocean, away from land. My test is at the end.

I wake up, from the nightmare of the dust. Ending it with what I must. But when its finished, its the end of my lineage. So you must just listen. My life has gone by and left. So when I die at an old age, remember me as a man on the stage. But I am now saved. I am happy to be brave. But you must acknowledge this, you have my thanks.