Notes

Eeshal, I know you've probably been wondering for quite some time what exactly has kept me quiet or sad or different. Well the thing is I've never really gotten over you, over what we had. I did for a while stop thinking about you, but when you followed me again and we started talking again I felt the same spark we had before. I'm not sure you did and I'm still not sure if you do, that's mainly the reason I never talked to you about this, usually anything and everything I'd just talk to you about it. I never knew and I still don't if you felt the same way, But I don't know its weird you know, when you told me you were happy with me, that gave me hope. It's difficult being friends knowing I've always wanted more, I've honestly never thought to tell anyone and of all people you, about this. I honestly never wanted to ruin our friendship, but idk if you've noticed but we have so much in common, we're almost the same person and dawg you are basically my other half. I've had feelings for you for quite some time, they came back ever since we started talking. You know it's crazy, we are so meant to be tgth (in my eyes at least) but the whole friendship dynamic comes into place. I know you say shit like you're ugly or you're not smart and stuff, but bro you are litr so pretty like it is crazy that u think ur not pretty, and ur delusional if you think you're not smart. Dawg you study sm and get good grades like ur gen1 so smart. I love you eeshal I seriously do bro, and I mean that. I'm not trying to be some Alyaan from daraz, I actually love you, sahi pyaar Mohabbat wala love. I'm sorry if you don't feel the same way, I'm sorry if I've basically ruined our friendship. But life is short and I thought, why not shoot my shot. If this is the end well, I've enjoyed our memories tgth, I've enjoyed the times tgth, the voice note exchanges, sending each other reels. I'll miss it all. But js remember, I'll always love you.

-Inshaal