Notes

Well, this may be a lot just don't tell anyone.

When I was little, I was Sa'D by the man my birth mom was with. For a while it happened, then I went into cps and got adopted by aunt and uncle and for a while it went smooth until it didn't...
The same thing that man did before my uncle did than my older brother got kicked out and I had no one. For a while I wasn't going to say anything because I felt as if it was my fault plus I didn't want to ruin anything. Until my younger sister said he was doing it to her which i broke down because if I know he was doing it to her I would've call the cops or something. When she told my aunt it was this big thing but ofc my aunt forgave just like every other "mom" figure we had in our life.
My mom asked me if he did it to me and I told her no because I didn't want to make it worse... for a while I never told anyone until I did. when I finally told my mom she did nothing unlike when my sister told her. Meaning my uncle never knew I knew. he stopped for a long time 2-5 months. until one day I was as venerable as one can be we went out to dinner and I think I got sick because I put too much butter salt on my popcorn at the movies so when we came home, I was sick, headache, venerable. At this time, me and my sister slept separate from each other. all I remember is him standing over me and doing it again. I cried that night and the next night and the next. than it stopped so I was like why tell anyone it's over. than I was taking a shower one night and saw him looking through the bathroom window (it was night) my aunt was asleep. by the time I realized this I was 3 month cleans from SH until august 2024. I was going to tell my mom, but her birthday was right around the corner, so I waited than my brother was right after so a waited.
now here I am doing nothing about it but hurting myself more, hiding it, crying myself to sleep, sit on the bathroom floor and cry and cry, and no one else knows but me.

P.S.
don't look at me differently because of this.
Thanks,
M