Notes

Okay this is really sudden and I don't know if you'll even see this,or have the time to read it all. But frankly,I won't be able to live with myself if I don't give you an actual goodbye. I'll try to keep this as short as I can,though it may not seem short to you,I could type so much more. sbdfhj yeah

We've been friends for a real long time. I remember we started getting close after that Summer I was gone for,I was feeling really sad and left out when I had came back but you were there for me. After all that,you pretty much always ended up always being there for me. I could've always counted on you and it remained that way all the way till now. I want you to know how all this has made me feel,I don't want to make you upset or anything I just can't keep this on my chest anymore it's tearing me apart. Cause of all this I've been having a terrible time,honestly probably the worst time I've ever had. With myself,I can't stop blaming myself for this happening. All the guilt,self-hate,anger towards myself,me missing you,knowing I've made such a mess of things. It's too much for me to bear. I can't take all this. You really have no idea how much this has broken me up. Any time I think about you I just can't stop myself from crying. I'm so sorry Margie,I'm so fucking sorry. I don't know if I'm ever going to speak to you again,and it's all because of me.

I had really thought you were going to kill yourself. I really did. I don't want to believe I was overreacting with what I did. I don't. Anything you said,anything you said just didn't seem right. I didn't know what to do. Whether you were going to do something or not,was what I did truly something that came from an overreaction?? I'm not going to defend myself too much. I don't deserve that. I did make this whole situation. I didn't end up saving you or making you happy. This was something I shouldn't have done and I'm sorry for it.

I wish you the best!! That you'll get in a loving relationship and keep wonderful friends who make you happy. That you'll find your exact career you're wanting to be in and do great things with it. I wish we could've had more time. To make jokes,watch memes,laugh about characters,and get through hardships together. Hopefully,someday,we'll be able to do that again. Whether it be on here or some other place,and whether it be soon enough or a long time away. I'm never going to forget you,you're a huge part in my life and you've helped shape me into who I am today. You've given me so much to offer to this world. You've made me sweeter,more generous,smarter,funnier,just better yknow. I hope I've done something good in your life too,though I'm sure this has ruined everything. Again,I'm sorry for all this. I love you,goodbye !! - Star