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Hey so every end of the year i write for you and i was so excited to do it this year hahhaa Let's go... First of all i wanna say WHAT A YEAR I can't believe its been 6 years that I know you, i saw a lot of things happening in your life, you growing up as a woman and i got shooked this year, so many changes and surprises, I'm soo proud of you, you make me so happy, I have so many things to tell you about this entire " change thing" YOUR FREAKING HAIR IS GONE, I mean our hahaha YAS, tbh i never thought it could happen. Sometimes i see you soo strong like nothing can bring you down, but sometimes i see you so fragile and sensitive. You are a 23 old woman living a lot of feelings and sometimes avoiding it, which i think its the worst way to survive, I don't like to avoid my feelings lol. This year I had the chance to know a bit more of the real you, your real self, you opened so much your heart for us, i felt so connected, and it helped me so much, I didn't even tell you about it, but most of the things you talked about i could relate cause was living the same, and that's why i think its sooo cool when you open you heart and talk about experience and stuffs like that, this can help so many people out there, you can make people become a better human being, what if all the famous and influential people could talk about stuffs you talk, the world could be a better place, so sad when famous use their influence to bad things.. anyway, you've been writing a lot lately and you go soo deep talking about your emotions and feelings and omg, and i want to say that you can cry, let the tears wash your soul and sometimes I think its ok we make mistakes so things do not lose their enthusiasm. What is the purpose of being alive if there is nothing else to be repaired? Don't you think that somethings is just meant to be and if it's meant to be its gonna happen someday, and maybe skipping phases is a mistake.
So many friends. So many places. So many phrases and books and senses. So many new people. Going. Coming. We have only one world to go. And look at it. Look at the world! It's so small in front of everything we feel. Enjoy your life so hard, you deserve so much, scream, cry, be happy, be sad, get crazy, dance like tomorrow doesn't and also preserve your heart, but do not put glass on the walls. Preserve your heart, but let the sun in. Preserve your heart, but if the love knocks, let it in and let it all happen. Do not preserve your heart that much, just enough to distinguish what is real and what is illusion. You don't need to show anyone that you're fine, you just have to feel good. I think it's so easy to be happy, its happiness its so simple, sometimes I feel sad, but I know that it is a moment, cause soon I will smile again. If the world end today, will you be satisfied with the things you have done in this life?
People have lost the ability to see beauty in the simple things the world offers us.
Go on what is good for you and let things that hurts you go. If it's not worth it, forget it.Give sense of your own confusion. Look for something that strengthens you, guides you, that fills your being. Something that does not pull you down, that does not sink you even more. Want the best for you, always look for the best. You deserve so much more. We came to this world to be completed. Not emptied. You can not spend your life pretending that nothing happens, that nothing has hurt you, that nothing affects you. You have to wake up and realize the things around you. Live your life, live your feelings, respect yourself, your moments, do not avoid it, cause you can go back to the dark hole again, give yourself a moment to breathe and figure out what's going. I care sooo much about and how you are feeling atm.
Also I love your voice so much, and when i listen old songs I can't believe how far you've gone, I'm so proud of you, I'm so happy that everything you always wanted in life is becoming reality. I'm so thankful for meet you this year, I literally wanted to tell you so many things when we met but i forgot, and i can say i had enough time but I couldn't remember a thing, I wasn't even aware that we were meeting tbh, I waited for so long and then when happened i was like : is this really happening??.. also i wanna thank you for treat me soo well, I wasn't expecting that at all. I'm also happy cause since I first talked to you on twitter till now days, we never stopped to talk, you never made me feel sad, you are always so nice even when you aren't feeling that good. And i'm sorry if i ever said something that could hurt you. I will always support you and your choices, i hope you know you can always count on me for everything, i'll be there. I wish the best for you in 2017, I'm so excited for your " changes are coming" messages, also I hope you find someone who knows how to love you when you are sad and happy. I'm so ready to see what you have to show us next year, all your feelings, messages, songs, and everything. Do i have to say that i Love you so much? Lol ofc i do. Thank you for being who you are, i can see so much inside you, write it down, put on your wall : forget about the details, Laugh out loud. Do not care. Trust you. Do not be afraid before it happens. And always: be careful who really cares. Yeay woah it was so long I love you, Happy new year 💙💙 you are my Dad.
Ps : who's the winter guy? LOL