Notes

I guess you could say i met him out of curiosity. Nothing was ever going right but nothing was ever going wrong either.. it was in the middle. I was completely bored of life and nothing was making me feel anything. In some way i was trying to find a way to kill myself without actually killing myself. I was just sitting there continuing to drown myself in thoughts. what if everything was different what if i was actually happy with life. Then my friend invited me to a party one night and i didn't think anything would come of it and suddenly i seen him. He was just standing there. But it wasn't someone you'd normally find at a party, no he was much different much older. But the funny thing was he was the center of attention, no one could derive their attention from him. I watched him like he was some sort of study, the way he moved, talked it was refined and yet easygoing. He intrigued me more than i thought he would. But like i do with everyone else i ignored him, like i never put my eyes on him not even for a second. I continued to the backyard where there was this beautiful lake like something out of a movie. The moon was out and covering the lake with its reflection, and i stood next to one of the oak trees. I could hear someone approaching but i didn't move, i didn't care much for who it was i was too busy watching the lake. The person claimed their place next to me, their shoulder touching mine and thats when i finally decided to look over. He was captivating to say the least, he smiled as if i had complimented him and the beer he had so obviously drank made his lips wet and inviting. I tried to ignore him and continued to stare at the lake like i was but he wasn't having that. He didn't just want to be needed, he demanded it. " whats your name?" he asked. " Veronica, yours?" i said still not looking at him. " john, are you a friend of Nicole's ?" I turned to him and said " You seem a little old to be at a teenage party don't you think?" He wasn't surprised or taken aback instead his smile widened and his eyes sparkled. My glare softened and i couldn't help being even more interested in him. " Well yes but that's because i'm Nicole's Dad but if you want me to leave i will." I knew he wasn't going to leave even if i asked. "No" i said softly and he tilted his head studying me as i had him. It wasn't a shock to me that this was Nicole's dad, i had thought that when i seen his blond hair and daring eyes like hers. I smiled at his playful smirk and i don't know what came over me but i leaned over and put my head on his shoulder. He wrapped one arm around my waist and leaned his head onto mine. His presence was oddly comforting and his cologne was more than a little intoxicating. " Are you sure your comfortable? " he asked and i trailed my hand over his. " And are you sure your not touching me just because your tipsy? " the question barley left my lips before he moved his body completely away from me. Just seconds later his body was pinning me against the tree. " If i was tipsy you would know and don't be rude with me." He said his lips getting closer with each word. My hands were above my head and i felt vulnerable but i wasn't nervous, i was excited. " You understand me? " he asks as his hand comes off my wrist to softly grip my chin and tilt it towards his face. " Yes " i said in a breathy huff. " Good " he says and as fast as he pinned me he let me go. He walked off into the house and i was left stunned. I couldn't stop my feet from walking after him but i soon lost him in the crowd of people. I stayed late into the night, hoping that i could see him again but as the hours passed and people were taking shot after shot i gave up. I seen Nicole out of the corner of my eye and i got up so quickly i thought i would black out but i made my way towards her with a vengeance. I grabbed her shoulder and she turned around, let me tell you she was wasted like none other. " Hey, do you know where your dad is? " I could tell how weird that sounded but she was too gone to even blink. " Yeah.........He wghen ughp the stairssss" She slurred and i had to wipe off the spit on my cheek before i rushed my way up the stairs. I opened multiple doors before i opened the one at the end of the hall. I slowly opened the door to find John laying on the bed with another beer in his hand.