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aye brendon, its so shocking that youre younger than me today. hmm, where do i start off for someone whos special on day one of meeting me? 💗 well first of all happy birthday to someone i can call family, a bestfriend, my bae, and my world 🌎 you might think "yeah its my birthday, nobody cares except angel" thats not true. no matter what your past did to you to affect your future has nothing to do with me, doesnt hurt/bug me in any way. dont think im gonna walk away from you knowing it doesnt matter. youre literally like my life, if i lose you somehow id be torn apart and lifeless without you. i dont care if i have someone else to replace you, because nobody can do what you show me. and thats happiness everyday you talk to me in a way like im special 😊from the beginning i didnt what to think because obviously you were too good to be true and then thats when everything started changing. i was losing people in the middle but that didnt matter because they werent as important as you were. you were patient for me and had faith in our friendship, which made it grow stronger as we went. ofc people are gonna say we were meant for each other and i started to think that thru, maybe everyone is right but after months of my relationship theirs nothing i can do to except learn that youre still in my life and i need to face it. maybe youre already here reading this at the exact moment thinking this so damn cheesy like youre smile ❤️ every moment you say something negative, it leaves a scar on my soul and itll never go away once its there. being positive is important to not only you, but me because i hate seeing people hating on themselves. once born that way, you either learn to love yourself or be that one depressing person who gives up. this paragraph is gonna be such a waste of time, and so disgusting im sorry for that. but i just want to express how i feel about you.lemme compare you to jackie, shes someone thats always there for me and yeah it might seem like nobody is more better than her. im not gonna number my loyal friends from least to greatest being loved the most. everyone matters to me, its not fair to love one more than the other. do you remember the first time we met? and back when you added 90% of the women on ghosts? i felt like crap knowing that i would be someone that you wouldnt care about because every lady online gets the same attention like the others, as if i meant nothing because you didnt know who i was but you seemed to me like a person who'd love me for me. it was friendship at first sight (completely not cheesy at all) when everything started falling apart, thats when miracles started happening, you talked to me and thats when things began to come back to me. i got my life together because i knew people cared about me, and you did too thats why im the person you see now. im not only being myself cause im forced to, i chose that way so you knew what it what like to have somebody who cares. example, im not nice to people without a reason, because i feel good about myself making peoples jaws hurt after smiling so hard 😌i love you so very much for trying to be yourself around
me, but its not fair that you arent comfortable around me like you are with jackie. i understand you really really like me, but we both have something similar and different about us. not being rude but i care, probably more idk because she might hate you a tiny bit. you think i shouldnt give you extra chances, but people can change no matter where, when and why. it might take a couple of times to get you positive not because i told you to, because you want to love yourself cause wow 😍look at you grow to be a beautiful person you are now. youre just so amazing to be around, who wouldnt wanna be friends with someone like you? (CHEESIER THAN CHEESE HAHA) youre just so intelligent, hilarious, cute, deep, and have a sense of humor + a perfect personality = a bonus ✨im here rn with youin this party, not so much time left till midnight sadly. i apologize that my depressing self had to get sick and sleepy the whole day where instead i couldve spent my afternoon with you. it makes me happy that you take my compliments for someone else, for you cause you realize what you are to me even when it isnt for you and i dont say it. i need to stop being afraid around you, cause thats why you love me, for being me. for your information, when i say something like "i love you" takes so much guts because you'll never know whether you'd regret it in the future or not. if i lost you, id lose myself and everyone. im attached to you (not in some weird/creepy way) promise ☺️and brendon is a dope ass name, dont get triggered.
something like my name "angel" makes me think im a worthless transgender. i love you so much, thought this paragraph was gonna be bigger than what i thought in mind. hopefully that doesnt matter, and without any money i cant show you how much i truly love you but i hope my own words that came from my heart and brain did. you are worth every penny, trust me brendon 💓learning your past made me know you more, didnt mean i dont wanna be friends it meant that you could still change even if it meant people hate you because everyone makes mistakes and its reality. im sorry i couldnt make this day special like you wanted, i tried so hard to do something for your birthday today cause it means so much to me. once more, happy birthday bestfriend. much love, slay the day more than i did sitting home. even tho you got an xbox wifey 💍no need to reply, just wanted you to read something that meant a lot to me. would you like to watch bb or a scary movie tonight bae?💕or whatever you'd wanna do, up to you.