Notes

Hi. I’m not expecting a reply to this. I just wanted to say some things now that I feel like my head is clearer. Take your time and we’ll talk when you think you’re ready.

Every feeling I’ve had has been magnified because of the distance, and it feels like I’ve been suffocating you.
I’ve been terrified of losing you, and I forgot to give you space and time to yourself because of that. Alone time is important to me, and it’s important that you have that too. I forget that you have limited free time with your busy schedule, because moving back here has given me way too much time on my hands…
I know your style of communication is different than mine, but I knew this from the beginning and wouldn’t have gotten into this if I thought that was a problem. It only became a problem because of insecurities I had. You were messaging me nearly every day, which I know can be challenging when you have so many things on your mind, and so much happening in your everyday life. I don’t feel like you’ve been unfair to me at all (except ignoring me). But I recognize the pattern of me pushing and you pulling away, and I would be willing to work on that.

I agree that it’s been moving fast, and maybe I am more invested than you. But our time together has been amazing, and I’ve learned a lot from you. We just click in a way I’ve never experienced before, and I feel so comfortable with you. But you already know this.
Maybe we do need to take a break for a while, or at least slow things down. If that is what you need.
You’re great, and I can really see a future with you. Which scares me. But I know I can’t force anyone to love me or be in a relationship with me, and I will respect whatever you decide. I hope you know you can be honest with me about anything, and that you don’t think you’ve made my days any more stressful. You’ve been so good for me.