Notes

jan19:
10:51:get along with everyone
@10:31:brk.,tahsin tlks of career u apply evryday?
@10:28:shckera.talks of 7k..3.7..1k down..talk bold.
deal on the a.c
wen u go to bnk morgage bank will say to pay bell.
@10:27:mind messedup fap lastni8.sleep5hrs.
@10:25am:Juliet.. frm nigeria. came to can.. cardriving,pizzadv
bell 3rds..more resp than us.
jan18:
@4:42PM: STOP LIVING THE LOW LIFE.. LIVE THE LIFE YOU WANT.
BE GOOD DO GOOD.HIGH QUALITY.
@4:36PM :NO MORE KIDS MIND.. BE A MAN.
@3:15:ASK ME IF VIRGIN,AGE?,SCKERA..YASEEN DOESNT CARE IF MRD.
SIMPLY SAY NOTHING.
@3:11:every body avijeet juliet room,shkera blck wife..
@2:55pm : Stop reacting to things that has no benefit to me.
feeling good less reacting medtation will give more power to control.
@2:49:Feel like i use will power for youtube and other bullshit stuff.
@2:46:I WANT TO FEEL SAME AS I WAS 16AGE.. DOPAMINE..
CONFIDENCE.ENERGY DRIVE TO DO THINGS.
NO MORE SUFFERING.
@2:33PM .. FEELING GREAT .. MEDITATED LUNCH.12:40PM.
@2:01:abundance.. mindset..we have what we need we don't need anything external approval.
I am abundance i knw how to get things in my life i am fully confident.

@2PM:I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD START WORKING OUT,RUN ..
Stamina,Conf,Energy.
@12pm..feeling angry ,irritated.
@11am:lastni8.. abdul kalam .. intelectual level..marriage yaad hi nahi raha,
spritual level.
@LASTNI8 MARY FOLIO WAT EVER YOU DO IT WITH ENERGY .UR ENERGY.
@10:33:STOP TALK .. ANITA.FAKE PERSONALITY,
TAHSIN..TKE BUS.
@10:28: NO TALK TO PEOPLE I AM NOT INTERESTED IN EVEN STARTING A CONVERSATION.
MELVIN,JULIET.

@9:28AM:FEELING GOOD.. THOUGHT LASTNI8 YOUTUBE..
VIVEK.INTELECTUAL LEVEL.. COME ON MOVE ON.
@9:21:rem kf..my life pain .. fap addict.. must leave.
login @9.. left msg coming at 9.

Jan17:
@6pm:Feeling good .. finally 1hr. ni8 nofap and sleep 7hr.. eat,

@1:23PM: MELVIN AND SHACKERA.. CONF .. TALK ..
@11:38: Feel like two life..
1.one with wrry feeling low.. scarcity mindset..
wry:money,mrge,const,no licence.

2.one without wrry wrk IT JOB,Elon Musk. MOtivation abundance mindset.
no fear just do whats needed.. not regret after action

*Discipline.
Pray,code,
mroutine.
ni8routine.
weekday routine
weekend routine
nxt goal:
IT JOB,
other goals time?

*Control ur mind
Take it a day at a time
hour by hour..
WRY ABT CODE JAVA NOT ABT STUFF THATS NOT IN UR CONTROL/

REAL LIFE I DREAM...







@10:49.. mind issue nocoffee and fap2tyms
@10:46:FEELING LIKE I AM LOOSING INTEREST IN NUMBERS NOT GNG UP..
10:41: NOFAP,SLEEP7HRS,
@10:40:MIND RUSH.. TRYING TO CALM .. WRRY
MONEY,MARRIAGE.NO IDEA HOW IT WIL ENDUP.
@10:30:srkln grL LOOKS ATRACTIVE.
@10:elevator,, grl ask wer u frm i said hyd.. kukatpli,
@10:01:login
kept bag@near balcny window,wearing jcket..
wen jim came ASK TO keEP bag near hnger in area no place fr jcket
kept jcket near entrance hanger ON TOP TAHSIN.
@7:45AM:AWAKE..WR,brush,bath..8:15:send pics.37@bus36.
in bus..grl look at me .. me too saw her.. felt attractive..

Jan16:
@7:WEN GNG HOME.. TAHSIN . CONFIDENCE. AFRAID.
NOFAP,COLD,SLEEP,WRRYSPEED,BRAIN CHILD
@1:36PM:FEELING GOOD AS FRESH HAIRCUT.
@12:12:FEELING OK .. NO COFFEE.. FEEL LIKE GNG BCK TO FEEL NORMAL.
@11:55am:stop keeping off things untill last day.
stay sleep12to6&nofap.
prep frm today wat u want tomrw.
@11:49:just do wats right Car,ITJOB,..PR.
@11:45:Feeling good dwn as wR.burning sensation.
*11:43am:Feeling good went wR,meeting.
@10:31:no coffee sleepy .. last ni8 /..
@10:02:came home login..avjit said ..nothing frm tahseen.. i said f it ,, idk
@
Jan13:
@11:21: I AM GOING TO CHANGE THE WAY I AM FEELING .. I REALISE I AM SHIT NOW .

@10:48: THINKING HOW PEOPLE WHO ARE LESS INTELGENT AND EDU ARE TAKING ADV OF MY SITUATION.
@10:20AM:BCK FROM BRK .. HAD NAAN AND CHICK FEELING OKAY.
@9:41:FEELING LIKE I LOST SOME DIRECTION FEELING SHIT..
BIPOLAR.. WE WILL DEAL THAT.

@9:24: thinking of saqeq mama .. hyderabad feeling good
success.I HAD BI POLAR GRE TRAINING.
@9:16:feeling ok after coffee.
login:8:38


Jan11:
*ALWAYS REM .. NVR FEEL DOWN JUST WRK UR MISTKES
STOP WRRYING ABT SETBCKS ...
*CALM DOWN FRUSTATION IS BCZ OF NO REAL PERSON WITHOUT.. JUST MARRY HER.
GET CONNECTED.. BRNG HER. THATS IT.

*LIVE A BETTER LIFE
*BE BETTER COLLECTOR NOT JUST A COLLECTOR.
*4:33PM: FEELING LIKE EVERYTHING IS FINISH AND I CAN NVR BE GOOD AND NO REASON TO TRY AND REACH HIGH LEVEL.
*feeling messed up.. fap,sleep4hr,zheergrlthoughts.noideawrryhowitwilbe,
colab mistkes,wryof Adiction.Fap,sleep,internt.pappa.kf.

*HEART BEATS & NERVOUS.
LNMIIT. IIT LIFE USE FOR YOUR BENEFIT.24/7/365 REM DEATH.
Stop having thoughts of regret keep mind clear.
say Bismillah Enter in to Married life..
Leave all addictions and Make your Career&Faith Better.
the sooner you realise the better it is.
take all youtube & past exp..move ahead in life.
ALway have a humble voice .. don't be a shit person.
:( crying bcz of things i did wrng.. Ya Allah Please help me.
*feeling like my selfwrth is gng up.
*i
Even after life breaks you in to pieces you should be able to unbrk urself and move.
JAN10:
*GETTING TOUGHT TO CONTROL MY MIND .. TIMES,, THINK THINK THINK..
*rem. hyd IT interview tym.. conf .. feel gr8 look gr8.. testrne
*feel like something big is missing .. wilpower .. b4 conf lnmiit,tym .. life looks awesome was
is enthusi
*3:44pm: stop gng in to darkness just rise up...
1:42:rem grl in bus..she actually was looking atme me too .. was getgn down frm dif door.
1:36: STOP LOOKING JULIET ..JUST BE NORML.
1:30PM:
JUST DO RIGHT THINGS.. U'LL BE GREAT.
MARRIAGE.NEW GUY TAHIR .IF ALLAH WANT PRIYANKA IN LIFE
U WILL ..
1:22PM:
FLOCKA TV .. NOFAP GIVES YOU DIF PERCEPTION ON THINGS .
FEEL THINGS ARE LOT EASY CLEAR MIND ..
NOT TOO MUCH THINKING JUST DO IT.OR NOT DO IT. NOT REGRET.
FEELING FREE INSIDE .. DO WATS RIGHT .. NVR FEAR.
STOP ANOYYING PEOPLE BY SAYING SOMETHING.
ONE LIFE ..
KNWING IS NOT ENOUGH WE MUST DO.
1:16PM MIND NOT CALM .. THINKING OF SOMETHOUGHTS.. PEOPLE WALKING BY ..LOOKING AT THEM..
FEEL LIKE I LOST LIFE
1:09:GRL LOOK LIKE KF.
1:07PM: SATTARI.. LANG .. BUSINESS IRAN 2BUSINES
CANADA MEDICAL.
1:10pm: people say iam 30>

12:55:danish sir senior..
lnmiit 2011.mry.6yrs.did mba.life set
12:30to45:heatfood,tkepic.ice,eat.juliet.shckeracomplain.courtneyfight.micheleshowhndcalm.
shckera.. better .. we avoided. n said strght
*12:29PM :BCZ OF MY ADDICTION HABITS AND BS I AM ABLE TO LIVE
THE DREAM OR I DESERVE LIVING.
SENIOR .. LIFE DANISH.. WE CAN BE THAT WAY.. JUST TKING OR DOING RIGHT THING
CAR,MRGE,STUDY.,
GUILT FEAR LOW CONF IS FAP,INTERNET,..
NOT REAL LIFE
@11:30PM:
FEELING GOOD .COFFE.
4089264 2262609286
DO THINGS WITHOUT CONFUSION.. CONFIDENCE.


Jan 09:
*NO BADWRDS
*GREAT THAT WE ARE FEELING IN VIBRATION.
BEST FEELING
*SAY ASTAGFAR.
*BE A BEST PROF STRGT TALK ..
*JUST LIFE WITHOUT FAP,INTERNET AND THOUGHTS
*just bcz WE HAVE PROB WE PRAY.
CLEAR MIND AND DOING UR JOB FEELS GREAT.
GETTING OLD FEELING LNMIIT .. HOME..
CLEAR MIND. JUST FOCUS ON WRK WE ARE DOING.
FUNCTION AT HOME.


*numb
*just be relax no tense ..call cut if no resp.
driven:ajax unchained.
stop draining your energy.
100% Energy one thing direction.
not 20% energy & 20% Energy.










__________________
IT PROFESSIONAL..2HRS
*CODE,PRAY,WRKOUT,
KNW YOURSELF .. STAY CALM AS MUCH AS U CAN.
SUCCESS WITHOUT FULLFILMENT IS THE WORSE.
* STOP reacting to things.
ALWAYS SEE THE BIG PICTURE.
BURY THOUGHTS.. NOFAP
STOP RID
@STOP DISTRACTING YORSELF .. FOCUS ON ONE THING AT A TIME.
@BEING SELF HAPPY IS GREAT BUT DIFFICULT.28TO58.(30YRS)..MINDSET IS THE GAME THINK BIG.FEEL LIKE I IMPRVE THOUGHTS.
ONE LIFE .. HEALTH,FAITH.MUSLIM,RELAT.FAMGOOD.Ammi,WEALTH.ITPROF,
When be at work know whats imp .. stay laser focused.self imprvemnt.astagfar,sub..azeem
BE LASER FOCUSED .
Keep ur prob infrnt of concious frntal lobe..keep wrking on it.life.
knwing is not enough we must do.ACTION IS THE GAME.
IMAGINE .. CLEAN
MY LIFE GOT WORSE ..
NOSTUDY,FAP,INTERNET,TYMWASTE.NOPRAY.//
THIS THINGS TOOK MY LIFE IN DIFF DIRECTION.
NO MARKET VALUE.
FEEL GOOD WHEN I THINK OF CLEAN.. IMAGINE TRAVELING IN TTC TRAM .. CLEAN DAY.
*PEOPLE AT WRK . JOHN FOCUSED. KNW WAT TO DO.
*I CAN FEEL THING DEEP.. CONNECT HYD.. NOT FANCY STUF IN TORONTO.LIVE IN REALITY.
I DON'T GIVE A FCK ATTITUDE.
stop gng in to darkness just rise up... all the way up.
200DAYS A YR.. IF WENDS REMOVED.5000$ A DAY.
GET COMFORTABLE WITH UNCOMFORTABLE..5K PERDAY.1MILLION.IN YR
PERSISTANCE, REPEAT COMFRTBLE.
Have Right perception on things.
*Don't LET YOUR ACTIONS AND HABIT MAKE YOU SUFFER LATER
USE TIME AND ENERGY FOR YOUR BENEFIT.
DIYA KA TEEL NA DIYA KARE.. HELP BUT NOT LOOSE UR SELF IN PROCESS.


passionate coder .. as profession.
spend majority of time .


WEALTH:
DRIVING AND CAR.
IT JOB.
PAY BCK .. AAPI.14K BHAIYYA.14K CIBC.14K ..42K

RELSHIP:
AMMI SAFE .. AT HOME BHAIYYA.
MARRIAGE ,WIFE,KIDS


HEALTH:
HEALTH CARE.

FAITH:
PRAY

stay sleep12to6&nofap.
mroutine.n
nroutine:home in 1.5hr w study,
freshup eat,cook,eat,sleep,washdishes,indeedapply.
*noyoutube,nofap,sleep12to6.
day active,nosleep,lazy,
wrk effectively
Think Big//
IT Skills .. job.
IMPROVE YOUR SELF AND UR SKILL EVERY DAY
jan16: stop living a life wer u r confused. of dirving car fear,
thinking too much over thinking...
think u r less than others..
dipen..low life asshole.. always calls and wants my time every weekend.
Say why do you always want me to waste my time and money..
i don't have the time and money to spend as you do.
Stop keeping people on Pedestal..some OR MANY people don't deserve that much respect.

******nofap,nointernet,sleep11to6,,meditate10m&10n,wrkout,run,
pray
code.wrkfr expnse.
callAmmi,bhaiyyaweekly.
use weekend effectively.no time waste.
astagfar,thoughts in control wen outside,inhome,
*stay 100% active selfaware day time.. 7am to 11pm.16hrs. 8 hours..sleep and selfcare.
*imagine feeling great nice in india.. no wrk just home relaxing .. feeling .. sunny,cold air..
awesome feeling.. feeling to do anything no fear.
if gawars can do it why can't you.
don't let your mental illness control the things u want to do in life.
rem .. friday in mohammadia masjid..how we use to feel ..
rem..some people are never going to be ok with skills you have.
*Never forgot who you are and kind of poeple life you already lived.
lnmiit..parth,jatin,peeyush,santu,manmohan,kk,...
youtube motivation.. jsonmez,garryvee,alex ikon,ajaxu8nchained
growup and tke action.
life is running so fast.. time age energy wait for nobody.
___
*come early to work :
sleep early,start 10min early 7&8:15..
*FEEL GOOD, MOTIVATE YOURSELF.. PUT UR MIND IN THE RUGHT MINDSET.
*****JAN16:THINK OF OVERALL LIFE..
LIVING IN 43 SULTAN POOL DR .. MKING 1600$ A MONTH .. EXPNSES 800$ 700 SEND TO AAPI.
WEEKENDS .. 8DAYS NOT UTILIZING.
Know where you are and where you want to go.
you are still living just the same life as student
paying small payment to aapi,expnse. just over broke.
You want IT JOB,PNP APPLY IN 1.5YR.17MONTHS.





*ITS ALL MIND GAME YOU ARE GOING TO PLAY UNDERSTAND ITS VERY DIFFICULT YOU NEED
TO PLAY IT SAFE HAVE NO FEAR.. REM .. ONE DAY U WILL REGRET OF THE ACTIONS YOU DIDN'T TAKE.
*ALWAYS STAY IN BEAUTIFUL STATE. say bismillah..tke action.
*@job. jan 17.1:49pm..stop reacting ..mind feel like saying something
to melvin shackera.avjeet,tahsin,juliet..abdus.. can't calm mind..
10min fr lunch ..
Throw out the excuses. Simple as that. The excuses are literally the only thing that holds us back.
*jan17,3:11pm: Feeling good .. can do more in life stop connecting urself with low life people.. live
Limiting urself with there belief.. rem u can do wat ever u wish..

Affirmation:

Put ur prob in concious.. wrk fr it..
ITJOB,PAY44K,MRRGE
stay in beautiful state.
VERY DIFFCULT TO STATE HAPPY WITH IN SELF,INSIDE ZONE ... NOT WORRIED OR WONDER.
*WAT EVER YOU DO IT WITH ENERGY .UR ENERGY.
Expenses .. pay 35k(700)(900.cc&expnse)..1600$ imp.
doing the right thing is always the right thing.. doing wrong thing is always the wrong thing.
rise to INTELECTUAL LEVEL..spritual level. COME ON MOVE ON.
Stay in ur zone..calm urself..wrk,call,notes,xl.. stop thinking of or looking,tlking with another
Stop keeping people on pedestal.
You are just continuing life of hyd in Toronto.. Nothing special.fancy..make sure you do things that are imp
1.PR...ITJOB(1.PR,2.PAY44K.AAPI,BHAIYA,CIBC,3.Marriage,4.)
bhaiyya wrds .. you are still same place when you came canada ..2013 to 2016..3yrs 5months..2013.aug/
thoughts,habits,,
Call ammi daily,bhaiya weekly,
***GarryvEE,cASEYNEISTAT,ALEXIKON,AJAXUNCHAIND,VIVEKMOTIVATION,JohnSonmez.BRANDONCARTER,
ROHITSHARMA.VANCOUVER, MARY FOLIO ,chrisHwk
*derekbanas,thenewboston,
USE NCC CAMP EXP IN LIFE, TO WIN ALL THINGS YOU DESERVE DON'T WAIT..
SCHOOL&MADARSA,NARAYANA,LNMIIT,HUMBER,JOBS.MOVING,FACTRY&YOUTUBE,
PAPPA,AMMI,BHAIYA,AAPI ALL LESSON FROM THEM.
SCHOOL FRNDZ,NARAYANA FRNDZ,LNMIIT FRNDZ,HUMBER PEOPLE. EXP..
PASSIONATECODER,CAR,SEX,PRAY,HABITS,SLEEP,FOOD,THOUGHTS,YOGA,MEDITATION10N&10M,
SELFRESPECT,EARLYTOWrk,StartoWrk10minBefore.
*REM,, HEALTH ..BCKPAIN.FAP..FEELING .. CANT WRK SIMPLE JOBS.FOCUS,CONF,LOW ENERGY,BACK
FOOD.
*MISSING LINKS IN NEURON BCZ OF FAP
no tym fr dipen,asam,,untill ITJOB. EVEN AFTER IF WE HV IMP WRK.
use Weekend
kNW PEOPLE YOU ARE WITH ARE LOW LIFE.YOU DESERVE MUCH BETTER ENV AND TALLENTED PEOPLE
DIFF MINDSET.
*DON'T BE A HARD PERSON .. INSIDE STAY GOOD THINK GOOD FOR EVERYONE..ALWAYS BE GOOD WITH
PEOPLE WHO WER BAD.
*ALWAYS FEEL LIKE EID DAY.
*STOP KEEPING PEOPLE ON PEDESTAL.. CANADIAN.
*THINK OF PEOPLE FRNDZ AND FAMILY DOING IN CAREER
IRFAN..SAUDI 1LK,PRAB,PARTH,MANMOHAN,DIVYANSHU,SUHAS,JITIN,
*REM.CLEAR THOUGHTS IN INDIA.. CONF TO ANYHING WE START OFF.MISSING
CONF TO BCK HOME .. CYCLE WATEVR WE GO ON.
*Rem. Feeling awesome ..at home.. no wrries ..lot of willpower
@regret.. 2007to2017:fap,
nostudy,
2013to2016:incanada..
bcz of fap effected .. no money,no hppines,dipressedlife,can't



upcmng:
THUS COLAB.
CIBC LICREDIT.

NOFAP&NOINTERNET15MIN. SLEEP.
*SLEEP@11,AWAKE@6,7,