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Mom its been 2 years that you left us i always think about you at the table when im eating breakfast. You had a nice smile it was really influctus. i was wishing you open that door saying good morning or some shit but those words are gone and dead to me no one can ever replace you you are my fucking destiney everything i do is for you. i wish you was there to see me on stage and graduate to going to high school but god had to take you early. I really didnt know your secreat but i wish i was there when you needed it . You was always crying about your dad because he past when you was young to now i fell how you felt its pretty sad to. mom you past when you was 36 i was only 11 2 years later i felt sick as ever. I remember you told me things like you'll get anything you want fuck that shit i only wanted you now my hopes and dreams are gone to. Now i'm 13 thinking i'm a grown man doing shit i don't really understand. this life is hard i really don't know what to do with it mom i fell so stupid. School basketball and grades dam i wish you was still here to this day . Everybody in my family saying i have your smile and laugh well yea that's true but it would of been better if i was with. You in a better place that's what people say but i don't think its true are you in heaven or hell its hard to say your life would of been better if you stayed with me anyways. I know that you watching me every were i go and every step I take. when i do stuff i love to do i don't do it for me mom i do it for you. You had to go early. I wish i can say bye or a big kiss a least dam i really fell suprised. Now i'm living with my grandma she can be tough sometimes but that how its going to be when i'm older right now she gives me stuff that i never had and i count my blessing for everything because thats what i never had. My big brother alex said is going to get better thats what i wished happed but i still belived in god and i still have hope deep inside. (im going to move a little bit up from live) When we was burring you it was the saddest day ever everyone was really hurt and everybody sticked together. I always love you no matter what happened to me or what ever happened to you. When we was at the funeral it was really sad seeing you like that after that i sat on the floor next to my cousin mante. That nigga is doing big things with the clippers he puts in hard work everyday. When i got older and got a nice job i would of buyed you a house thats one thing that i always wanted to do dam now its hard to do.`