Notes

i know that this is a school computer but i would like to post how ive been feeling and whats been going on in my family. i hope no one else ever sees this because its very personal. tonight 11/28/16, i tried to kill myself by cutting into my wrists. tonight was one of the worst nights ever. i feel terrible for what happned. ive been making my parents feel bad because of the way ive been acting. ive lost it i have and i regret all of it because now i cant even go home until tomorrow. and tomorrow my mom dad and april are all gonna have a talk and see what they can do for me and what i can do for myself. i will admit it, i do need help because ive been having terrible thoughts like wanting to kill myself and cut and i finally almost did tonight. and now i realized that me doing so just made it worse. i regret all of the things ive done and now parents might be getting a divorce because of me, i honestly wish i could take it all back because if i can cause that between my family mom and dad i wont ever be able to find a good man. but thats beside the point. i hate myself for doing what i did. i really wish that the knife went all the way but i just guess it wasnt my time yet. there still is time for me to make things right and im gonna try my hardest to fix everythin that ive done between my family. and o hope that they can all forgive me for the shit ive put them through.