Notes

Amelia Nur
You know that I would literally do anything for you just so that you would be happy. I don't think you realise how much you really to me and there is no amount of words that can describe how much you mean to me. This blog is gonna be long, but I just hope that you will realise how I feel about you as a best friend and more...
I am so glad that I have met you, I have said that a ridiculous amount of times I know...but I am really pleased! I have never told anyone in my life the things I have told you and I have never been true to myself or anyone else about who I really am and what I want in my life. I know now what I want in my life, a great career, an amazing family with an amazing husband and I want YOU. Just you and nobody else (I know that in the future this is never gonna happen - but hey, everyone can dream can't they?)
We have had so many great laughs and memories via Skype and when we are doing that it feels incredible because in my heart I know that over the months we have been talking, you have become my real best friend and I have never felt so happy with anyone before like I feel when we are talking on Skype.
We have fallen in love, I don't know how and I don't know why...but I don't regret it a single bit! I honestly do love you even though I have a boyfriend (which I think is considered as a secret affair) but you know I just can't help falling in love with you and sometimes I just wanna stand at a really great height and just shout out "God, let us be together...it's killing me!" but I know that this can't happen and it really does suck. I want us to be together, hold hands together, share kisses together and just do things like people do when they are in a relationship. I would never try to hurt you on purpose, I want to treat you in such an amazing way that you won't ever forget me and that you won't ever leave me because you'll know that no one else can give you that feeling like I give to you.

God, I can't stop writing this blog...I am pouring my heart out, I could write a book about you and I haven't even known you for a year yet and I know so much about you. I have never made this amount of effort with anyone for one reason they don't deserve it and another reason no one genuinely makes me feel loved and cared for expect you. We are gonna meet, no matter what anyone says or if they wanna stop us...it will never happen because I won't let it. I can be who I wanna be around you and I know that you won't judge me. I'd be that best friend who would rather die or jump in front of a train just so that you would stay alive and deserve to live a beautiful life because in my eyes you are the most beautiful girl I could ever see (no matter what you say about yourself, don't change for anyone)

I just wanted to express myself and my feelings...you'll be in my heart. Don't give up in life and keep going no matter how hard it gets, I'll always be here for you.

I love you so much and I always will.<3