Notes

as you know, emmanuel is a person i knew. i didn't know him that well, but well enough to consider him somewhere between a friend and an acquaintance. and he lived a hard as fuck life. he was extremely poor and he didn't live in the kindest household for some time. but, when i met him, i would've never expected that. he was so inspiration. he worked his damn ass off everyday and always kept a smile on his face for the people he cared about. he wanted to be a police man so he could protect people. he cared so much. and yesterday night he died. i felt so bat shit insane. he did not deserve this at all. he got so far. he worked so much. i literally said something along the lines "im jujst bad luck im gonna cause all my friends to die" and "if i ever see the person who cause his death i wont fucking hesitate to beat the living hell out of them" though i was just mad. i didnt believe he was dead. i dont want anybody i know, dead. they all deserve to live wonderful lives. everyone has the chance to. everyone can work hard and achieve their goals and find a reason to live. emmanuel did. and i also knew emmanuel wouldnt want me to be sad or mad. he would want me to be ok. ok as much as possible. and i know, he'd want everyone he knew to have a happy life. so im following his footsteps. im not becoming a police, but im gonna try to become a person who lives a happy life, who tries to help others be happy. for him. so please even though you dont know emmanuel,, be grateful for your life. you have a chance to make it great. teen years suck for probably like 80% of people. one day, you will have every chance though. please work hard and live for emmanuel, as even though he didn't know you personally, i already know he would've wanted you to live a happy life too.