Notes

Well, I think there's this obvious major part of me that I've been keeping. My identity. I haven't really been detailing on who I am, such as my name/age/school whatever. It's just that I really don't like who I really am. It's the internet, I get to lie who I am as much as I want, right? People won't find out if I don't get close to them. But you're special, and I love your company. Yeah, my name isn't actually Alexander. I took if from an old friend of mine. He was sweet, and I loved him so much and would refer to him as my older brother. Sadly..There was some shit happening and..He's gone. He killed himself. > Because of this, I was actually traumatized. I missed him, I loved him and he was one of the only people there for me in the past. And it's just..Back then, I was super edgy too. I was also depressed and sad and suicidal, anything negative. I guess that's why I regret it so much. I couldn't be there for him or give him advice because if I did, it would been shit because >I< am too depressed. I would of gave worthless advice and company. So, I wanted to change myself. Be a better person. Be happy and optimistic, forget all the shit that's been happening. I like the internet. It makes me feel safe because people don't actually know me.I honestly still miss Alex. So much so.
Anyways yeah, here's some >true< info about me.
>I'm a female (why i never called because I am not mute[though I do have throat problems and an accent. I have trouble speaking and slur on my words a lot. My speaking english is very bad and it embarrasses me<
I'm not actually seventeen. Alex was seventeen so I inhabited that number. I'm uh..a kid. (Too embarrassed to say lol.)
> I'm about 4'11-5'?
>I DO live in Anaheim. I live on S barbara Street near lincoln.
>I had a lowkey crush on you when we first met lol
>I'm really weird. and sensitive. A lot of people say I have BPD but my parents haven't taken me to a therapist or anything of the sorts.
>I'm really scared that people will judge me, which is why I sound so fake when I talk, all happy and talk in a cringry way.
>I'm basically genderfluid, because I do feel that I have a connection to Alex> and he's a male.
>Ive been admiring you for a long time I can't even describe it without crying.
Anyways, yea. just basic info for now. I think that when I feel more comfortable I can tell you other things that you want to know. Also, I guess this means we can call since you know I'm a female haha? I actually really want to know how you sound like. Also, I can show you how I look.