Notes

It was midnight as usual and it happened again, i got an urge to get out of the house, it was perfect dark but i saw the road glowing in gold and i felt like i had to follow it i moved forward not knowing where i'm going but i had that dark feeling in my chest, that dark pleasure pushing me there it lead me to a bridge in the middle of no where i don't even know where i am but i don't care my feelings are overwhelming me so fast every dark feeling i ever got passed through my heart and then left with a numb cold feeling and muscles disconnected from me i walked into the edge of the bridge looked down and stared at the deep dark water so beautiful so attractive i could't hold my self i felt so in love with that darkness i wanted to get close to it, it's calling me, it's winking, it's smiling staring at me, i sat down on the edge of the bridge then looked up and saw the moon shining there, so beautiful, in the middle of a dark sky no stars that night i layed back and stared at the darkness i don't how many hours passed, i can stay here for days staring at the darkness, at the sahdows looking for my self, my soul, my heart i never felt i belong anywhere before i gazed into that darkness so beautiful so hostile that endless black abyss of beauty i couldn't hold back