Notes

I apologize Arcelia that I called you cels, I did not realize it was such a significant thing to the point that you felt the need to be a bitch about it. I get I hurt you and i know we are no longer friends, I accepted that months ago. I accepted the fact that you do not need me in your life and no matter how many times I apologize you wont forgive me. so I why do I continue to apologize for fucking up? I myself do not know. I was stupid and immature and I acted like the world revolved around me. I look back now and I know that I constantly put you down. I dragged you down in the endless downward spiral of Skylee's latest fuck ups and that was unfair to you. I was doing so great for a long time, truth be told I was happy. Then I was too happy and I fucked it up just as you predicted. You have never once apologized for anything you've said while you were pissed, I apologize for that too. I am sorry that you can not see that I was hurt to. I get that I completely fucked you over and although we are so beyond being friends, I continuously come to you for help. why? Fuck if I know. You may have been hurt by me, but clearly you are doing great with it now. I literally felt like shit all the time for being a self-centered asshole for the past what, 3 years? I have tried to apologize and make things right, I forgave myself recently. Its not my fault we do not talk, its yours. You have not even began to fathom the idea that I am not the same person i was in middle school (which is ridiculous). So next time you want to make a jab about how we are not friends, think about that. I stopped caring about the details, I told you I'd always be there and I will always mean that. You said the same so I'm sorry for taking you up on your word.