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Hey so I wanted to explain in full everything because I feel like I owe you (and I need this for me) an explanation. I know you don't really care at this point. Anyways, so last year when you and I were talking/seeing eachother I kind of just stopped chilling with you and started seeing someone else. I don't want you to think (or see me as someone I'm not) that I didn't care about you. I did like you. I did care about you. I felt as though things were going abnormally well, you were kind and cared about me; something I had never had really. I was afraid of getting hurt so I walked away and went with what I knew (being with assholes) I also felt like (since I had experienced this with my ex's) that since we had sex that I had no choice but to have sex with you everytime we hung out otherwise you'd be mad. Especially since I had been molested and almost raped by a guy before so I kind of thought I couldnt say no or something bad would happen to me. So I thought walking away would prevent a lot. I messaged you a few times trying to have small talk because I wanted to be friends but I'm aware that sometimes things break and can't be repaired. I know you don't really want to talk to me and that's cool. I just needed to fully explain myself because I need to, to everyone I've done bitchy things to. Now I won't message you to start random conversations that will lead nowhere. I just needed you to know the truth behind everything. Also you don't need to respond.