Notes

Okay... before class of Nov. 14, read 53, 54.
Then, read p52 to p60.
Finish with 41 to 52

managedto read the last pages of 2.4, up to p49. not very golden understanding.

12pm
Finished P() class. Okay.
My remaining responsibilities this week include:
Finishing the AFA Essay Project (Due Friday, 4pm).
Studying and performing well on the LSM Practical exam (Tuesday, 5pm to 7pm).
Studying and performing well on the LSM Quiz (Today, Tuesday, open until Wednesday 8AM)
Studying and performing well on the P() Quiz (Wednesday, whole day) and the Worksheet (Due next week's Thursday).
Completing the MACC application, sending out the AMP for permission (as soon as possible)
Registering for Spring classes (Initial courses picked, registration opens 11:30AM, Tuesday).

Right now, I'm going to meet with Maggie, because I forgot about that, and assumed that we still have an appointment.
During this meeting, I was hoping to speak with her about LSM. I can't keep moaning and groaining to her, that's for my therapist.

The quiz taken in Week 8 (this week) utilizes the content from Week 6 (3.1, 3.2).
For classes of Week 8, I need to read 4.1, 4.2 (from W7), 4.3, and 4.4 (from Week 8).

PLAN.
I have read up to 4.1, haven't read up to 4.2.
I had hoped to use my meetings with Maggie to catch up on... one of my math courses.
Maybe during the meeting, we can talk about the page 40 to page 60 of P() and ask questions.
Btwn the meeting and Nicos, I can read 4.2, and do some practical exam studies using the materials shared on Canvas.
During Nicos meeting, I can ask textbook questions.
Go to AFA, then therapy, then write the Essay. From 9p to 12a, perform catch-up on LSM, to ensure I'm ready for the exam.
I don't need to go way back and study. What i NEED TO DO Is read the stuff of now, ensure I've read and understood (or asked questions) on it all, then I can consider going back.

12:23p -- no Maggie meet this week. email later and ask if she has openings.
I'm gonnna work on P() right now. Gonna finish 41 to 52. Then 52 to 60. THen re-read 53,54. ID any questions, bring to Nicos, and when answered, return to the textbook and skim, now understanding the materials.
After reading them (which is the W5,6,7 stuff), read week 4's stuff. GO BACKWARDS. NOT SKIP AND FORWARDS, BACKWARDS. USE EXCEL FOR QUESTIONS.
Remember, P() measures progress-of-the-week in page numbers.
LSM measures progress-of-the-week in sections.
12:58pm.
GOt major distracted.
1:21pm -- keep getting distracted. finally learning what a random variable is.

5:50pm
finalized what courses i'll be taking. gonna send AMP out after.
responsibilities: LSM quiz. LSM practical exam. P() quiz. P() readings. ENT case study. AFA essay.

Tell Ms.Hale about the past month.
--- I couldn't set up a consistent work schedule, I couldn't bring myself to ask questions in class
DUring reading week, I couldn't get anything done because I didn't have any pressure, I didn't have any need, I didn't feel motivated to do anything beyond... re-read textbook pages that never made a lick of sense. P() stumped me, and stumped me hard.
The other night, i was furious. I hadn't done the work i wanted to accomplish, my TWO WEEKS of reading week, which were supposed to be spent studying, passed by fast. too fast. and I didn't have the balls to ask questions. so i sorta dry cried. i didn't have any tears, but i beat on myself. struck myself, punched my arm.
i did it to punish myself for not getting work done. last night, i told myself i wasn't gonna let myself go home until i got the draft down.

too much deets. discuss:
--- feeling like i'm forgetting days, or that weeks pass by - as though whenever I blink I'm automatically recycling my memory, making me forget the past week.
--- how i didn't change as much as i hoped I would. how i made a theory that i didn't change, because... i'd forget that i changed.
that if I changed, i'd forget why i changed. If i didn't change, I'd remember why i needed to change.
it came to a height saturday. i had big plans. wsas gonna study for an exam tomorrow, write part of the essay.
instead, i lay around. watching videos. dicking around for 7 fucking hours from 5pm to midnight.

her internet sucked. Gonna work on the essay.
now to 8:45p -- work on essay. complete Q1.
8:45p - head home.
until 9:45p -- shit, shower, email AMP.
9:45p = LSM quiz. Then, LSM Practical exam study.
No time available. sleep needed. take the LSM quiz.

time to sleep.
tomorrow, work on ENT. THen spend afternoon eating and studying for LSM Practical. At noon, go home and snag a booster.
After the exam, sequester in library and perform AFA Essay studies. COmplete Q1 draft, and confirm the scandal.