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sory idk if this is a serious question or not but on the 9th i broke up with my boyfriend and we were getting really distant the past month and ive been so sad that it doesnt even phase me anymore because he cant speak english as well so he just types it or whatever and he wont ever barely speak to me because he thinks im going to embarass him but i never did and idk i was really interested in his language and i was so fascinated by his country and stuff and im tired of boring canada and us and stuff and i was like i really wanna meet him and ive dated him for only like 3 months and it sucks because youd kinda give everything just to be with that person and i cant even meet him like weve sent pictures or whatever but the past month he stopped showing affection and stuff and he talks to his friends more than he talks to me and hes mean to all of my friends and then hell be kinda mean to me and say i have bad taste in music or that im not a nerd like him and i felt like he was cheating on me with his ex girlfriend becaue he got his ex pre gnant when they were still together and i think it started when he told me that she was getting an abortion and idk if he still talks to her but maybe ofc they do because they had to obviously talk about the baby or whatever and now i think they are starting to like eachother again and it sucks because i cant even cry or anything because ive been sad for so long i cant even show any emotion like im just done with everything and i feel so bad because he will talk to me within like 1 - 2 minutes as long as it doesnt have to do with me asking him what happened in our relationship or if i ask him to call me or whaetevr and it makes me sad because i feel like he doesnt like me anymore and then ill say that i love him and he wont even say it back he;ll just say "ditto" or "same" or "ily2" like hes trying to avoid it so he wont have to face the fact that he said he loved me in the first place so i wont try to get mad at him