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i hate myself. i hate my looks, i hate my eyes, my hair, my voice, my body, my nose, my personality, my face. i hate myself. i wish i could be as pretty as the girls i see everywhere, there so pretty. i dont get what people see in me... i dont get what he saw in me. he went from a girl with blonde pretty hair blue eyes very skinny and nice to a girl with brown hair brown eyes ugly asf and weird body. i hate my self. i hate my self. i wanna kms i wanna leave this world. i wish i could leave. i cant leave my sisters though. i hate everything about me. i wish people seen me as the prettiest girl. i went to having the most friends, matching with everyone, being the most talked about to having no friends, no one caring about me, and no one noticing me. i hate my self so much. i swear i just wanna leave. i hate my self. please. jus. help. me. all these pretty girls, im jealous of. they are gorgeous than you have me. the ugliest thing on this earth. i would look better in the sky. i wanna end this. me. everything. i just hate myself. im fat and ugly. im stupid and everything. everyone hates me. my own family hates me. honestly im just a disappointment atp.. i feel like i only get used 4 my body. ik everyone thinks im annoying. ik everyone hates me. ik everyone thinks im ugly. i let the worst people get the best of me. i wanna feel better about my self, but its so hard when u go 2 school with a fake smile and sb makes you ball ur eyes out in a stall.. i hate me. me me me. everything about me is ugly. ive always been called the worst names. im starting 2 believe it. yes im ugly, yes im stupid, yes im fat, yes im useless, yes my mom doesnt love me, yes im a disappointment, yes yes yes. i hate it, i hate me, i hate everyone, i hate being judged, yes i care about what you think. yes i cry my self 2 sleep. yes. yes. yes. he only wants me 2 make his ex jealous he isnt feeling me fr. i wish i was white and pretty. but im not.. im brownish and ugly. i wish i was dead. nobdy loves me. please. help me. i hope this world catches on fire and we all die. lolll. imagine going out and getting compliments every few hours. i wish. i get a compliment every once in a while.