Notes

I really loved them, and I wish I could go back to where we were all happy at lease to where I was happy.... Having them in my life was the best thing that ever happened to me. "Wish we could turn back time to the good old days". He was perfect in every way possible even though he made me feel like ending him I still loved him, I said "Ur stuck with me forever" guess forever has no meaning. he was always there at my lowest point he made sure I was ok whenever I needed someone to talk to, he was always there but now he's gone. They were very special to me, it's weird how u can miss someone you've never met and wish someone u pushed away was here. I- don't understand anything anymore I'm so confused, and I hate myself for doing that, but they'll always have a special place in my heart... you know their names don't u if not here's a little hint "A". *Sigh*
growing up I never had to lift a finger because I always had friends never knew what it was like to lose someone, but it feels like idk like idc am I supposed to care that they left. there's this feeling that I don't want to say it's like it's confusing like i can't understand it's like I've accept the fact and moved on but deep down I never cared y didn't I care I'm so confused was it all really my fault was I stubborn was I being fake did I do it because I cared. Well maybe i didn't care maybe Ur disgust by the sound of my name but it was Ur fault, and it always will be and until u can understand the way u accused me and the way u made me feel u will never understand cause Ur also a petty bitch, I seem to attract a lot of people like that in my life huh!! I will never blame myself for anything that happens ik what I did and what what I didn't end of story. Someone said to me " There's a difference between being a bitch and being that bitch but u will always be just a bitch". I'll continue to be the bitch I am, but I'll show u who that bitch is so from today mark my words. On this day 7/22/20222 at 12:24 A.M I am no longer the same person if u want me to be like Regina on mean girls bring it bitch because now yall are dead to me. I am done mending friendships cause I'm always the only one saying sorry and I will never regret what I said from now my motto is "BE THE BITCH THEY LOOK UP TO" rest in peace America cause this Jamaican having ass attitude girl just flipped a switch. goodnight peeps.