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hmm. I don't really know where to start. Well what i want to do is to clear out some things so that we could live on together happily. So first of all i wan to thank god for such a wonderful girl as you and thank you for giving my life a meaning. If i hadn't met you i don't know i probably would have suicided weeks ago. But you came and you gave me enough confidence to move on in life and you gave me the confidence to believe that i'm actually someone, someone who means something, someone who has goals. You made me realize that i am someone and not just a nobody. And i'm telling you now, i know and i accept and i believe everything you say. I know that i'm someone who you like alot, i know that i'm someone who is the most important for you, i know that i'm someone that you trust the most and i also know that i'm the only one who you can talk to especially if it's about your problems. I know that i mean so freaking much to you, and i know that i make you laugh all the time. I know that you don't like it when i go away and you're always happy to see me again. i know that my presents make you happy, that's why i keep on doing them. I also know that you want to talk to me and you want to be with me or have me next to you so that you could cry on my shoulders. And with you, now i think i got enough confidence to accept these, know these, and believe these because before you came, i was just wandering around the world looking for the answer for one question. Who am i? I never got the answer until you came and i nearly gave up and thought i'm gonna die as a nobody but look at this now, I'm the most important person in someone's life. And that's why i act weird because this is a huuuuuge honor for me and is a life-time chance, but you know it's a little bit too much. If i want to say suddenly a similar situation, i'd say i just won 1 billion dollars. It's a huge opportunity but at the same time it's too much to handle suddenly. It really was only a dream that i would become someone this important. Up until now i only hoped that i meant even a little bit for someone and now jeez... thank you <3 you give me confidence, and now i know all of these that i said, i accept them, i believe them and human words cannot describe how thankful i am and how much i appreciate this chance. You absolutely changed my life. Using Kathi's words "You definitely need someone in your life who shows you that you are wrong". And just so that you know you mean absolutely the same for me as i do for you but a lot more aswell <3 . And as for the goals that i have now, i'm pretty sure you know them, but this time it's a bit changed up. So you know that i want to be with you forever and help you with all your problems and give you unlimited support from me. I'll also work as hard as i can to make you entertained and happy and i'll try my best to help you with everything you want. i'll also want to be there for you whenever you need me and i'll keep on supporting you no matter what. My goal is to get through everything together and to be by your side forever. Also to be happy ones together. But what's going to be a little bit different is how. Well, i would like you to know that you can relieve all your stress on me, all of them. Be angry with me, hit me, punch me, slap me and i'll be more than happy to absorb all your anger. I'd also want to point out, and this is why i was a little bit skeptical about everything, is that (i know this will sound so damn demanding and selfish) if i really am that person, then treat me like a person like that. Even if a little bit. Because your most important person really feels lonely at the moment and he needs someone to cheer him up. He needs you and i guess you need him. So don't make him feel like you don't care about him anymore. I now have the confidence of a stone statue and right now i'm on the secondary seat of the car that you're driving. The question is, are you going to put me off at the next gas station, or you'll fasten my seatbelt so that i could help you stabilise that car so that it'll never flip over again?