Notes

06/11/22 4:09 am
December 2019, that was the date when I first met him, he's Kurt, my guy. He's an altar server, yeah I a5dmit it he's handsome but I hate him back then because my bestfriend likes him and he doesn't like her. Hanna is my ultimate childhood bestfriend and as her bff, I hate those people who hurt her. And as time goes by, I forget about him but I still know who he is. Last January 2022 I broke up with my first ever boyfriend (if only I cannot consider him as my ex, I'll do it) I'm the one who broke up with him, it's to early for me to be in this kind of situation and I do have a lots of valid reasons before I ended things between us. Actually we talked again and thought we can make things work again, but it turns out it get more worst. I do loved him and I really loved him before but it's so tiring to be with him, we have a lots of differences and it affects our relationship so much. Then one day I realized that what I feel about him is not love anymore na, it's like I'm just staying because I pity him. At first I was so afraid to let him go for good b'cuz I thought I'll be hurt if one day I'll see him with another girl. It takes days before I decided to finally set ourselves free, It's hard to let go someone you really love but it's also exhausting to stay with that kind of relationship. After I'm totally moved on, I have this friend Kian and asked me if I'm talking with someone na ba daw, I said no and then he recommended his bestfriend and told me na this dude really wants to have a conversation with me but he's kinda shy daw. I already thought it'll be Kurt kase I know kian and him are bestfriends, and I'm right it's Kurt. April 23 at 4:42 am, someone messaged me and it's kurt, he said "hi goodmorning" then I replied "oh hi goodmorning". I have no sleep pa that time and siya din, we had a small conversation then said goodbye na kase they'll play basketball daw and I'm gonna sleep na din that time. I thought he will be my friend lang and we'll stop talking din after ilang araw, but guess what month have passed and we're still talking. But we're really different from what are we before and what are we right now, I'm so glad he's not just my friend but also my lover. We had a great time together even though hindi kami magkasama personally, and that's why I love him so much because he's faithful, he really cares about me and he has a lots of difference from my past. I'm so grateful that I've met him again and I still can't believe that after 2 and a half years I'll meet the man that I use to hate before but now the man of my dreams. Kurt is such a nice guy and sana he's really different from those men I've met before. I don't know how long this will last and we're still getting to know each other, but I do really hope that me and him will last forever. Like what I said to myself that "If it's not him, it's not anyone." He made me feel so special and loved right now and I'll love him too as much as he loves me. As long as I'm here love, you're not alone and you'll never be alone. I've never been this kind of person and this other side of me is only for him. To my love, my man, my Kurt, I love you so much.