Notes

How I been feeling everyday it's like I want give up but I can't because I got so much I'm lose. Just feel like nobody there I just don't feel love no more. Maybe because I never did believe in love. I always knew it was a word everybody like to say. People say i switched hold time they switch on me. There always some you go wan't in life but you can't give up yes it get hard and tough. Yes I wan't to give up sometimes but that's life. Don't over think yourself because you never know what going happen next min. Not everybody always right or wrong. You going learn from lots of things in life you got make a mistake so you can learn from it. Life just go on everybody there ownself everybody got different and option and dreams. My dream was always to be the best mechanic in the world I want be able to build my own vehicle from scratch to end. My back up plan was to go miltary to save our country I want change this world around. Sometimes I just think what will happen if I don't make it back home safe. Would my family care? Or will they just share a lil tears and get over it in like a few weeks. That' just me like what I say you can't judge nobody off there feeling they expression. I just rather be alone and stay to myself because at the end of day ik I can trust me enough to not tell nobody. I may look happy and stuff but deep in down I'm dying and nobody won't be able to tell the differences. Sometimes I just feel like everybody against me and nobody would understand where I'm coming from tbh that's why I stay to myself and talk to muself that's probably why I talk in my sleep so much.