Notes

in march my bestfriend said to me that she would change school by the end of the month i was so sad thinking about i would finish the year without her cause i have no friend but her 1 week later we were playing cards with our other friend and then i found that that she cheated so she got up and i started to run after her but it was for laugh so i tried to catch her by her jacket..turn out i pulled her wig off infront of everyone in the cafeteria i immediatly tried to put it back on her but it was too late at first she laughed it off so we ran in the bathroom and we locked in the bathroom i gave her her wig and all the things i could say was (im so sorry i didnt mean it please im sorry) and then she started crying and my heart was beating so fast i didnt know what to say but sorry then we came back everyone was looking at us she was going to her friend saying i pulled her wig off crying and i was like im sorry please then she said (no thats it i no longer wanna talk to you) i was shocked because she was my only sincere friend even people mistakes us as a couple after school i texted her with a massive paragraph all she said was (ok ,no big deal) i started saying that im serious im not jk im really sorry she said the same thing then we reconcile she said that she couldnt live without me an d i said the same thing and we became friend again our friendship became so much stronger but i still hate myself for doing that and its not the first time my friends say all the time that i beat them alot and cant control my anger i understand ok and i understang her because if someone would pull my hijab off i would NEVER forgive them.