Notes

i feel numb.
i want to be there for him,
but the way he's acting is holding me back.
i miss him,
not just because he was kind and caring,
but because he was what I called home.
he made me feel like no one else made me feel before.
I don't think he knows that,
but it true.
he told me once that he uses to write poems for me,
and before school started, he was going to give them to me.
I never knew that,
until he told me a year later.
I felt like an asshole, because I broke up with him before school started.
I was being selfish
I didn't know what I wanted
but now I do
I want him
I need him
I want to feel things I've never felt before with him and only him.
he doesn't trust me at the moment,
he has doubts on how this is going to go
and if he should let the other part inside of him out
he hide it inside of him because of what other girls did to him
i promise i wouldnt never chris.
i dont care if u dont trust me or not believe me
i swear what she did, ill never do
i love you
maybe she said the same thing to you and thats why you let it happened
and maybe u blame yourself because you believed it
but with me
u dont have to have doubts on weather i love you or not
a lot of things happened to me too this past year
that you dont know about
if you just ask you will hear
but it really did affect me either way
i guess i never learned to stop searching for someones good and happier side
sometimes its a plus
but other times it hurts
when u find out that side doesnt want to come out
but for you
i believe in you 100%
no matter what chris
ill always be there for you through thick and thin
i dont know the way your feelings right now
but i know that i want to help
no matter what
and thats why im still by your side