Notes

I have been wanting to become a true submissive. I have wanted it so bad that I can almost taste it. I can feel it in my heart. I went to my boyfriend and told him that I want to give him my submission; my total submission. His response to me, I can't give you what u your looking for. My heart felt like it broke into a thousand pieces. The thoughts that were running through my head, the feelings that were coursing through my body. I ran out of the room crying. He didn't understand nor could he. So I got myslef together and decided to be serious in my search for a Dom, someone that could give me that attention and help me to become that good girl, that special submissive.
So I went back on Collar Me. I got lots of emails, some obnoxious, some kind, pic comments, etc. There were far and few between that actually worth even chatting with. Then I met a guy and he seemed like the perfect one, well what i thought was perfect. He want to use and abuse every part of me. And have others use me. I told him I dont wanna bacome a whore I wanna become a true submissive. He basically told me that a true submissive is a whore and is to be used to the fullest for the pleasure of her Dom. He also told me that I should learn that in order to become a true submissive that I will have to divorce my mind from my body. Hmmmm, I dunno about this. I am so new and rather naive to certain things. But I wanted it so bad. We met and he wasn't anything like his pic showed. And certain things just didnt sit well with me. We did not play nor have any sexual contact. That is one things that I stuck to my guns about. :)

Then I got and email from someone that really peaked my interest over some time, it just gave off the right vibe. Let me say his girlfriend had contacted me by email a while ago. We chatted on and off for a lil bit. He was such a sweetheart yet very honest and forward about what him and his girlfriend were looking for. Yes thts right, they are a Dom couple. Wow, is all I could think. Everytime I would see him online I would have a smile on my face and hope we could meet, patience is very difficult for me. Well then this past Friday came and I got a chat from him asking if we could meet Saturday, of course we could. Even though I was extremely nervous and scared. The thoughts that again ran through my head. So then we confirmed everything for Saturday at 5p at a local restaurant. I was so excited. Then Saturday finally came. I grew more and more nervous. But just did the beast I could do to get ready.

I get a chat saying they will see me there. Omg is all I could think. It is really gonna happen. I am such a shy person. So I get in my van and I drive to the restaurant. I arrive just a fee minutes late. I was standing out front, smoking a cigarette. They pull up in their car and I knew that it was them. When they get out I thought wow they actually look like there pictures. She was beautiful and he was very attractive. Of course I am shaking. we go inside and chat about things, life etc. I felt like a school girl that could stop talking. And then Anita told me they needed a few minutes to talk and then they would let me know the next step. My mind was was spinning.....did I talk to much, did I not answer something right. Oh shit.......She said honey ur fine. I went to the bathroom and as I am coming out of the stall and Anita was standing there. Basically she told me that we were gonna go somewhere else and that I needed to keep quiet unless I was spoken too. Of course my head was asking itself a million questions.

We arrived at the next place. He was such a gentlemen, he opened the door for me. Hmmm, wht is tht? I havent ever had anyone really do that for me. But it made me feel special. So we went in and had a great time. They asked me some more questions. Brad then asked me to go to the bathroom and take my bra off. I complied, a lil' unsure at first. They also asked me to kneel before them. The entire evening was well beyond my expectations. As we were leaving Brad and Anita walked me to the car. He told me to sit down and he kissed me, I thought I was gonna melt. And then he asked me to do something. He said when you go home I want u to play with your self and get yourself there 4x and then on the 4x I want u to cum. It was all I could do to not explode right there. My pussy was dripping wet.

As I drove home my mind was spinning and the thoughts were going crazy. I got home and did exactly what they had asked me to do. It didnt take long at all. But my pussy was so hot and wet. I came so hard, I could barely move.