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FUCK U SO MUCH IAN.NO MATTER HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU I LITERALLY HATE U FOR THIS HWO COULD U DO THAT TO THE GIRL WHO LOVED YOU MORE THAN YOUR OWN MOTHER,THE GIRL WHO LET YOU DO ALMOST ANYTHING U WANT TO HER JUST SO U COULD LOVE HER.FUCK YOURSELF I FUCKING HATE U FOR THIS.COULD YOU TREAT ME AN BETTER?"im not ready for all that relationship stuff"WERENT U THE ONE WHO WAS HORNY AS HELL AND EVEN ASKED IF I WANTED TO FUVCK.I LITEARLLY DESPISE YOU EVEN THO I LOVE YOU I JUST HATE U TO THE POINT WHERE I EVEN HATE YOU.BUT I STILL HAVE THE QUESTION HOW CAN U DO THIS TO ME.I LOVED YOU MORE THAN ANYONE ND SHOWED IT TO YOU AS MUCH AS IO COPUL.YOU KNEW I WAS MENTALY UNSTABLE AND STIKLL WENT TO DO THAT EVEN IF YOU KNEW I COULDNT SLEEP BC OF YOU AND BC I WAS SWEATING.I TOLD U HOW I REJECTED MOST GUYS JUST FOR YOU.I LET YOU DO EVERYTHING YOU WNATED TO DO TO ME EVEN THO I HAD BOUNDARIES."i kinda didnt like her"OH YEAH?DONT ACT DUMB WE BOTH KNOW YOU LOVED ME UR JUST TRYNA LOOK COOL AND SOUND COOL BUT UR A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT AND I HOPE YOU WILL FIND THAT OUT.I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT I LOVED YOU MORE THAN ANYONE ON THIS ENTIRE PLANET AND THAT IN MY 12 YEARS AND 10 MONTHS OF LIFE I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE AS MUCH AS I WAS WITH YOU.BUTN NYOU WASTED MY LOVE AND TIME.IT WAS NICE BEING WITH YOU BUT YOU JUST PROVED ME THAT UR AN UNGRATEFUL PIECE OF SHIT.I LOVE YOU IAN AND YOU HAVE MY HEART BUT YOUY FUCKING MADE ME WANNA COMMIT SUICIDE MAY TIMES.FUCK YOU ANSD I LOVE YOU STILL EVEN THO U DONT LOIVE ME BACK BUT IDGAF I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU EVEN THO UR A PIECE OF SHIT AND I NEVER WANT TO WASTE MY TIME AND LOVE ON YOU LIKE I DID.I TOLD YOU SO MUCH ABOUT MY LOVE FOR YOU BUT STILL YOU DECIDED TO BE A PIECE OF SHIT AND A JERK AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME AND I HATE U SO FUCKING MUCH FOR THAT.I HOPE I HAUNT YOU IN YOUR DREAMS AND I HOPE YOU FUCKING REGRET WHAT YOU DID TO ME I WONT EVER BE ABLE TO EXPL;AIN TO YOU HOW MUCH SADNESS AND ANGER YOU MADE ME FEEL EVEN THO YOU ALSO MADE ME FEL THE BEST FEELINGS IN THE WORLD.THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING BC NOW YOU JUST PUSHED ME EVEN CLOSER TO MY LIMITS.STILL THO GO FUCK YOURSELF AND I HOPE YOU FIND A GIRL WHO WILL CARE FOR YOU MORE THAN I DI.OH YEAH YOU WONT LMAO BC I WAS THE GIRL WHO LOVED YOU MORE THAN ANYONE IS EVER GONNA LOVE YOU AGAIN AND I HOPE YOU WILL REALISE THAT ONE DAY AND BE FUCKING GRATEFUL THAT YOU MET ME BC A GIRL LIKE ME IS A ONE TIME LIFE OPPURTUNITY.U FUCKING SUCK AND I HOPE YOU REALISE THAT WHAT YOU DID WAS MENTALY BRUTAL.TO A FUCKING GIRL WHO HAS ALREADY LOST HER SHIT.NOW U MADE HER EVEN MO0RE SAD AND ANGRY BUT DONT WORRY I HOPE I HAUNT YOU IN YOUR DREAMS AND DONT WORRY ONE DAY SON YOU WILL BE CHASING ME AGAIN I JUST KNOW THAT BUT I WILL SHOW NO MERCY BECAUSE THE WAY YOU HURT ME IS UNNACCEPTABLE AND I HOPE YOU WILLL FEEL TWICE THE PAIN I FELT BC OF YOU .I SE WHY YOU DONT HAVE A GIRLFRIEND AND JUST A SMALL REMINDER I WAS THE FIRST AND BEST ONE YOU HAD AND WILL EVER HAVE BC YOU JUST MISED AND OPPURTUNITY TO HAVE A WIFE FOR LIFE BUT THATS FINE I WIL FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT ME THE WAY I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE TREATED BECAUSE YOU OBVIOUSLY DONT KNOW HOW TO TREAT A GOOD PERSON.UR SO FUCKING CRUEL AND FULL OF YOURSELF BUT DONT YOU DARE VER FORGET WHERE THAT CONFIDENCE SCAME FROM.IT CAME FROM ME BC IF I WERENT IN YOUR LIFE TO CONVIKNCE U ON HOW HOT AND BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE YOU NWULD PROBABLY NEVER EVEN FIND THE CONFIDENCE I HOPE YOU FUCKING NEVER EXPERIENCE THAT AGAIN AND YOU WILL NEVER FIND A GOOD AS HALF AS GOOD AS ME IN LOOKS MAYBE YEAH BUT IN PERSONALITY NEVER,I FUCKING HATE YOU AND HOPE YOU FEEL ALLOF THE PAIN AND MORE THASN I FELT BC OF YOU.JUST SO YOU KNOW THAT YOU DID A SICK ASS THING WITH PUSHING A MENTALLY SICK AND DISTURBED GIRL TO HER LIMITS AND I HOPE THE THOUGHT OF MY SUICIDE WILL HAUNT YOU FOREVER BC IF I DO COMMIT IT YOU CAN BE SURE IT WAS YOUR FAULT.YOU KNEW MY MENTAL STATE AND M,Y WEAKNESSES ANDS YOU WENT AND PLAYED WIHT THEM.I HOPE YOU FUVCKING UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU HAVE HURT ME AND I HOPE SOMEBODY HURTS YOU AS TWICE AS BAD AS YOU HURT ME ANS I HOPE IT REMINDS YOU OF HOW YOU HURT ME BC YOU ARE A FUCKING VRUEL ASS PIECE OF SHIT.ALSO I HOPE YOUR MOM REJECTS ON GOIJNG OUTWITH YOUY BC UR A FUCKIMNG HOE AND YOU DONT DESERVE HWTA I GAVE TO YOU.I KNOW YOU ARE LONELY BUT HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO A FUCKING SICK GIRL??YOU DONT REALISE THE CONSEQUENCES OF WHAT YOU DID BUT DINT WORRY I CAN SHOW YOU AND NOT ONLY ME MANY OTHER PEOPLE.I HOPE THAT AFTER ME YOU WILL TRY TO LOOK FOR ME IN EVERY OTHER PERSON BUT YOU NEVER FIND ME BC I WAS A ONE LIFE TIME THIUNG.AND WHEN YOU COME BACK TO ME I MIGHT GIVE YOU ASNOTHER CHANCE BUT IF I DO BE FUCKING CAREFUL WITH THAT ONE BC IT WILL BE YOUR LAST ONE AND IF YOU DONT I STILL HOPR YOU WILL FIND THE "person i end up actually liking" BUT BE SURE THAT THAT PERSON IS NOT GONNA SHOW YOU A QUARTER OF THE LOVE I HAD FOR YOU AND SHOWED YOU.UR A FUCKINMG ASSHOLE AND A BIG ONE AND I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT.EVERYBODY KNEW HOW MUCH I FUCKINGLOVED YOYU AND YOU JUST ENDED UP LEAVING E LIKE THAT.OH WELL I HOPE YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY I NFELT.AND I HOPE YOU END UP NOIT SLEEPING,CRYING,SHIVERING AND SWEATING OVER THE THOUGHT OG YOUR LOVER NOT LOVUING YOU ANYMORE BC THATS HOW YOU MADE ME FEEL YET YOU DECIDED O MAKE ME FEEL EVEN WORSE.I HOPE YOU FUCKING KNOW YOURUINED A GIRLS VIEW ON LIFE AND LOVE BC UR A FUCKING AFGGOT AND A STUPID ASS NIGGA AND I WANT YOU TO JUST BREALISE THAT I LOVED YOU MORE THAN ANYONE WILL EVER BE CAPABLE TO.I NEED SOMEONE TO PUT THAT IN YOUR HEAD AND I DONT KNOW FOR WHAT REASON YOU DIDNT LIKE ME I MEAN IM NOT EVEN THAT BAD LOOKING SO IDK WHAT THE FUCK UR TALKING ABT.ANDALSO U VCANT GET NICE,BEST GF AND PRETT AT THE SAME TIME,U EXPECT A BIT TOO MUCH IF IM GONAN BE HJOINEST I MEAN IMAGINE IF I EXPECTED YOU TO BE HOT LIKE THAT BUT ALSO BE A GOOD BF,YOU COULFNT BE LIKE THAT SO WHY FDID YOU EXPECT ME TO????UR A FUCKING MORON AND I REALLY HOPE YOU REASALISE THAT AND ALSO THANK U FOR TEACHINGME A LESSON TO NOT FALL FOR NEEDY ASS 14 YR OOLDS WHO ARE ANIME FANS AND HAVE NOP L9IFE AND EXPECT TO HAVE FUCKING INTERCOURSE AT 14 WITH A GIRL YOUNGER THAN THEM LIKE IDK THE FUCK U WANT FROM MEW BUT IK I WANT A GOOD AND WHOLESOME RELAYTIONSHIP NOT YOU FUCKING BEING A PERVERT AND TOUCHING MY PRIVATE PARTS AND SEXUALLY ASSUALITNG ME LIKE YOU PRETENDED YOU DIDNYT BUT JUST BC I DIDNT SAY ANYTHING ABT IT DOESNT MAKE IT ANY DIFFERNT YOU SEXUALLY ASSUALTED ME AND I COULDNT DO ANYTHING ABT IT.WHY?UR A 14 YR OLD WHO ISA GIANTTIC AND YOU LOVCCKED ME IN YOUR APARTMENT NOT LETTTIGN ME OUT.LIKE ARE YOU MENTAL.I AM FUCKING 12 AND UR 14 CAN YOU NOT BE FUCKING HJRONY.IF YOU HAD A DIFFERENT GF SHE WOULD RPOBS BREAK UP WITH YOU FOR THAT BUT WHAT DID I DO?I STAYED SILENT BC I DIDNT WANT YOU TO FALL OUT OF LOVE.BUT HEY GUESS WHAT,YOU WERE NEVER EVEN UIN LOVE WITH ME IN THE FIRST PLACVE.IMAGINE LYING LIKE THAT.COME ON IAN WE ALL KNOW YOU LOVED ME YOUR JUST A PUSSY TO ADMIT IT AND YOU WANNA LOOK COOL NFRONMT OF PEOPLE ALSO STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE BC AINT NOBODY LIKES THAT.ALSO JUST BC UR HOT DOESNT MEAN U CAN BE A BITCH AND FUCKING SA PEOPLE AND TALK SHIT ABOUT SOMEONE WHOSA OUTOF YOUR LEAGUE MAYBE I AM UGKY BUT I AM THE PERSON WITH THE BIGGEST HEART YOU HGAVE EVER FUCKING BEEN IN SO YOU SHGOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR THAT.I HOPE SOMEBODY PUTS YOU I N YOUR PLACE AND SHOWS YOU WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO GET BROKEN BY THE PERSON WHO YOU LOVED THE MOST AND WHO YOU THOUGHT LOVED YOU BC THAT SWHAT YOU AMDE ME FEEL LIKE AND LLISTEN UP THATS FUCKING FUCKERD UP AND SHITTY AND I HOPE YOU FUCKING KNOW YOU RUINED ME BUT YOU ALSO MADWE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT MYSELF BC I KNOW IM A FUCKING BIG HEARTED PERSON WHO WILL ALWAYS BE LOYAL TO HER LOVER AND BE SWEET AND CARING AND NICE UNLIKE YOU ARE.I AM RUNNING OUT OF ENERGY AND INSPO OF WHAT THE FUCK TO SAY TO YOU BUT I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I STILL DO LOVE OYU AND TAT IM GIVING YOU ANTHER CHANCE IF YOU WANT BUT IF YOU RUIN THAT ONE THEN YOUR DOOMED BC ILL MAKE YOUR LIFE A LIVING FUVKING HELL AND YOU DESERVE IT ALREADY BC YOU KNEW I WAS FUCKING MENTALLY UNSTABLE AND YOU KNEW MY WEAKNESSES AND YOU WENT AHEAD AND PLAYED WITH THEM AND THAT IS SO FUCKING UNFAAIR OF YOU ADN I ONT EVER FORGIVE YOU FORTHAT BUT I STILL DO LOVE YOU AND I WILL LOIVE YOU JUSTA S I LOVED YOU BEFORE YOU JUST GOTTA FUCKING REALISE THAT NOBODY WILL EVER MAKE YOU FEEL AS LOVED AS I DID SO YOU SHPULD COME BACK TO ME BUT THIS TIME NOT BE A JERK AND BE ACTUALLY NICE AND BE A GOOD BF AND SHOW ME BACK THE LOIVE BC I BELIVE YOU CAN DO THAT BUT UR JUST STUPID TO DO THAT AND YOPU DONT HAVE YOUR OWN BRAIN YOU JUST DONT EVENNTHINK AND OYU USE ANIME OT MAKE YOU FORGET ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS BUT YOU WONT LKAST ANY LONGER IF I START TOI HAUNT YOUR MIND AND DREAMS BC WHAT WE HAD AND WHAT I HAD TOWARDS YOU IS A THING YOUWILL NEVER EXPERIENCE WITH ANOTHER IGRL AND NO GIRL WILL MAKE YIU FEEL BETTER THAN I DID BC WE HAD SOME GOOD FUKCING MEMORIES AND YOU WONT BE ABLE TO FIND ME IN ANOTHER PERSON BC IM ONE IN 10BILLION AND I HOPE YOU WILL REALISE WHAT YOU DID AND APOLOGISE FOR THAT BC THAT WAS ABSOLUTELY FUCKED UP AND I WOULD NOT WISH THE PAIN YOOU PUT ME THROUGH TO ANYONE WELL EXCEPT OT YOU BC YOU ARE A FUCKING MORON AND IF YOU NEVER DID THAT I COULD BE NROMALLY FOCUSED ON LIFE AND BE FUCKING HAPPY BBUT OFC IAN HAD TO FUCK SOMETHUING UP LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES.I NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT BYOU ARE NOT THAT SPECIAL EVEN THO YOU ARE SPECIAL BUT YOU ARE NOT AS GOOD OF A PARTNER AS SOMEONE CAN BE BC UR 1 IN A 100 BUT IM 1 IN A FEW BILLIONS.love you tho and hope you will come back and fix what you did.<3