Notes

I started to cope with music it worked pretty well actually! but then when my mother took my phone and iPad I began to "cope" another way..... 3 on my thigh and 15 on my leg I know this is self-harm but I felt like I had to do it, I could NEVER tell ANYONE! I have to wait for them to heal. this year has been hard for me I've started to fall out of my "dream" for dance and my mom and my sister have been not very happy about it which has caused me a lot of stress which is actually the reason I've started. my flinches have gotten worse too but also I feel like I'm going threw some... "changes" such as my sexuality and my aesthetic style (my sister calls me emo now and that's also hard on me because I don't like to be called that) I mean I'm pretty sure that I've gotten my whole sexuality thing under control I mean the only thing I ever watch now is Lesbian or Bisexual animated or Anime TV shows my mom still says (You don't have to LABLE anything yet) which bothers me because she doesn't know Just HOW much I really want to figure this thing out! but I don't really want to go on about my sexuality I mean this is my note or something NOT MY SUICIDE NOT GOSH I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING geez I just feel better writing this down now if any of my parents are reading this I know should go to a doctor or something and PLEASE don't talk to me about it, it just gives me more stress. I'm dealing with it myself. honestly, I'm not trying to be like LOOK I SELF-HARMED BECAUSE YOU TOOK MY PHONE AWAY well yes but you don't know how much music means to me and I hope you will understand me now. and I will come to you when I'm ready so PLEASE be patient.