Notes

Dear slim
My little dummy

I’m writing here because I feel like talking I might talk a lot I do talk a lot ig but yeah I will try to keep it as simple as possible. Thank you for this “ احتفالية " thank you for your heartwarming words it means a lot. I been in a circle for the last few days thinking about what’s might be going on with you . I know something was going on idk what I thought it might be eactly this but I remembered that we promised “ we are not gonna talk about the past we love each other that’s enough “ but I guess it's just so we can live happily for two weeks and yeah here we go again. I hate it slim I hate it that I think that some thing might be going on with you, you might be upset or don't wanna talk and I’m here standing as stupid as this. You don’t what kind of feeling i go through when you do this i might be wrong but it’s the worst when you cold to me like that , when you were the freaking man of my dreams one day and day after you soud like you don’t want anything near me it’s just confusing and not a lovely feeling at all. I know you stilll love me as much and everything but it’s weird slim when you just turn this way and you keep telling me nothing to shut me up. It's just all over again the lying the covering and all of that. And talking about it just exhausted the hell out of me but yeah we will do it again I guess. Every time I thought we settle it down but we didn't. I’m sorry that I lied I’m sorry I’m not a liar and I didn't mean it. And believe me slim I'm not playing with your jealousy it's just the way I am it's wrong you don't like it but this is me with the whole package you can't pick what you like and change what you don't like. But I can’t help it when you are judging me like that And I’m telling you my relationship with god it’s no one business you don’t know nothing about it so you just don’t say that. You just can't digest it to the point where you want us to wait until that time where you think I might be older & wiser and I would be changed and you would be with me for real at that time and if I didn't change then you won't be with me, and you don't want us to wait until that time because maybe I will not change until then and that would be a waste of time. To sum it more up Easily you could tell me “ Lina we won't be together unless you cover your hair” and tell me I don't want to change you. you just don't want me to play with your jealousy. You want us to wait because you can't handle it also you can't handle it even if I happened to work with boys. and that's exactly what gonna happen everything will be about jealousy slim I'm not playing with it I will not. I’m not the freaking head over heels jealous type I do get jealous but idc because at the end of the day you are mine. And Ik you gonna say it’s different because your a boy and I’m a girl but yeah same things you can work with the same gender but I don’t mind I don’t care and btw I don’t want to work with boy i want to work at a college to be specific so yeah you go work with girl . Mohammed i think we are young and dumb and whatever we are doing today we might by a very high chance regret tomorrow. I think we should be focusing on what's important at this point of our lives. it’s better if you focus on your life and i focus on my life because if that happened to be a “ waste of time “ we wont regret it . I love you a lot

Lina