Notes

I can't really say all the things that I want to say, so I'd just write everything down here.

1. Is this gonna be a thing to belittle me when you're upset? . Although I am aware that I said some inappropriate things, I never talk down on you.

You can't insult your partner just to defend yourself

This is really below the belt, just remember that your tongue is sharper than a knife.

2. I don't trust you anymore.

3. I still want to talk to you on the phone since it makes me feel more at ease. The issue here is that you don't communicate well enough, and your suspicious behavior causes me to wonder about you. I know you'd say i accused you but whatever you say that wont change anything that's in my head. it's planted the moment you told me whatever that is just an advertisement.

Recently, my anxiety has not been great, and it worsens whenever I perceive something to be happening. Every second of the day, I cry, my heart races, and I'm not feeling well. Which is why when that happened I blew off, I can't do that anymore like everything there's a shady moves, I just lost it.

This made me realize that, for the past few days, our communication hasn't been as natural as it once was. which is why there's lots of questions going through my head.

Are you truly interested in being with me, or am I just one of your options? because I've been feeling like it recently.

Are you really gonna stick around when things get hard?

Are you really down for me? Or you’re just there for a while then will leave once again?

I don't want to fight anymore but I don't know how I am gonna move forward.

Maybe I am just really sad again which is why I am feeling a bit emotional again. perhaps the clouds are not happy today. maybe my heart is not okay, breathing is hard today but maybe toworrow will be different. All i can do is to try to think positive. I am trying my best tho.


Today I cant sleep, you've received the package I bought cuz I thought you needed it but didn't open it right on the spot. I'm sad about it. i felt like just because you knew it was from me, you'd just open it on your free time. I know, I know I am just over my head.

It's sad because that's not how I am. I wish i could go back to my old self where i don't worry so much about everything. things are just different lately, but I honestly just want to be happy and go back to how we used to.

But maybe this time, it's different.