Notes

Dear Ethan,

What are you thinking right now? How do you feel about me, around me? Do you still like me? Am I not pretty enough for you? These are questions that run through my mind all day, and I truly can't help it. I'm the type of person to directly tell you how I feel and what's going on. I say the first thought that comes to mind to keep the conversation going. But sometimes I wish I could read your mind because I never know how you feel or what you're thinking. I want to be your friend and for you to feel comfortable around me. I want you to feel as though you can open up to me and tell me about how thrilled you are because something spectacular happened, or how you're going through a hard time. I know that we aren't dating and I understand that maybe we never will. But I don't want to waste my time chasing after someone who doesn't really talk to me and makes me question whether I'm doing something wrong. Maybe I'm too much for you because I talk too much, or because I struggle with depression. However, if that's the reason you need to tell me. I need you to communicate your feelings, and if that's hard for you tell me that, and I'll understand. If you think I'm too clingy tell me. If you start to feel disconnected talk to me. You truly are one of the most remarkable people. You're sweet, considerate, charming, appealing, and admirably fascinating. You have these enchanting eyes that make me feel whole in a way. I'm completely in love with your smile, it's the most calming thing ever, it makes me feel timid and nervous. I also apologize for not texting you recently. I'm grounded and got my phone taken away, so just know I'm not ignoring you at all. I'm writing this to try and understand where I stand with you, also, it's way too much to type. I'm sorry if writing this letter Is weird or overbearing but I'm trying here. I truly care about you as a person and hopefully, you understand where I'm coming from and hopefully, you don't think I'm weird after this.

Much love,
Jules