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look im really sorry that you have been having a bad day and i get that and im sorry but the thing that bothers me is you act like its all my fault and that i did all of this when i cant control the change happening in your life so if you want to talk about how you feel about the change or just in general thats fine but dont get mad at me like i wake upevery morning saying im gonna make your day shitty. and to be honest its not even that but its that im nice to you and shit and all you do is hit me and ask to fight and shit like that and its honestly starting to piss me off and dont take this personnally and all but just because you and alex have a toxic relationship and all but i cant control that and i also dont think you should take that out on our relashionship because lets not lie our frendship is toxic asf rn. im not putting that on you because i do wanna be your friend but at the same time i feel like you only wanna see me when your bored or you want something. im not trying to be a dick or anything im just trying to explain what i cant explain to you in person without it causing an argument. im just saying stop thinking everyone wants to fight you ecspessially me because you know i dont plus when i am scared of you i feel like i cant talk to you for shit. i get that its been a long ass week but i wanted to spend the weekend with you because i really aprriceate felling like i have someone thats here for me yk? also just because we never do it anymore and im gonna be with my mom next weekend and i got a little upset just because we have been talking about it for a little while and all and then you just backed out to see your boyfriend and you got mad at me because i didnt let you hit a vape? i just wanted you to know that if i didnt have one that you wouldnt hang out with me bacause thats the only reason you do. plus i already know you wont et me hit your new one at all or at least rarley whitch is fine idrc tbh but i feel like thats all you want from me i mean im sorry you didnt see your bf and you and your dad argued and everything is changing but dont say i dont care because i do you just dont want to belive it. sorry that wa a lot anyway i love you ill see you eventually then ig and have fun with alex.