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OK update on my super duper perfect life. So i got a crush on a guy in my class, how? I lied about it!! yess i lied about it, i became friends with rihanna and now shes my best friend and some weeks after school started id say 3 or 4 weeks after she asked me "Do you like anyone" and i said yess girl i doo but i didn't! so i lied about it! i pointed at a random guy and he was cute anywayy and turns out the guy was in my class and he sat behind rihanna. Fast forward to some days after, i stare at him during class alot and never truely realize it and one time we were making eye contact and i zoned out on him with a smilee which made him laugh giggle idfk and he looked at daniel!! Daniel? Whos Daniel?? daniel is his best friend and their really close, daniel likes rihanna but thats not a story for now!! so yeah and i found out the guys name is,,,,,, George Hernandez!! yess george.. and so- he found out i like him yeahh he told his friend aracely, my old friend from elementary (helped me with family nd friend problems, complicated relationships and soo much more) so she thought id say the truth but nooo way and i r egret it so much so SHE asked me during lunch "Hey do u like George?" and i said "NOOOO" yes. very aggresively. so shee said "oh" ii asked why shee said "idk he thinks u like him... idk.... u look at him during class alot" and I. I TOUGHT THAT WAS A BAD THING AND HE THOUGHT I WAS WEIRD AND I THOUGHT HE WOULDNT LIKE ME BACK AND IM STILL NOT SURE IF HEE LIKES ME BACK AND SO I.. STOPPED LOOKING AT HIM DURING CLASS AND VOIDED HIM YESS GIRL I DID!! so i got a neww friend in my mat class which is te only classi have with george and rihanna and so hee told my friend, too ask me, iif i.. liiked him! and i said "NOOO" and then told her i did without himm knowing because ii truuusted her. AND SHE WAS TRUSTWORHTY!! But anyway she tolld him that ii dont like him..... HE SAID "IDFC I NEVER LIKED ER ANYWAYS" ANDD SOOMETHING ELSE, I DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT ELSE HE SAID!! he gott mad eeeverytime my naaame was mentioned iin his coversations. I SUSPECTED THIS. he stilll knew that i liekd him so he toold all his friends! yes! he told carlos,king,leodan, and God knows who else! Carlos.. was the first person i told about liking george. he knew and promised not to tell,, HE DIDNT TELL HIM! some weeks after i had told him, he comes to me during band and said.... "hey genessis!"...."george knowws u like him'' and i said "ii know" and was about to go wiith my day when he said.. "he called you ugly".... I GOT SO PISSED AT THIS STATEMENT AND MADE AN ATTEMPT TO STOP LIKING HIM. I DIDNT TAKE IT SO PERSONAL BUT I LIKED HIM ALOT SO IT RUINED ME MEN TA LY. i have.. LA with carlos,,,,, So we talk alot during language arts and he said. "George knows u like him!!" and i said i dont like him anymore.. HE SAID GEORGE CALLED U DISGUSTING. I GOT REALLY MAD BUT I DIDNT DO ANYTHING. george was extereemely distant from me anyway. so i just avoided george!! i still liked him, after that and he looked at me during class alot so i wondered. but i kept him off my mind. SOME DAYS LATER, danna (my friend i left twice and got into a major arguement with) TEXTED ME!! "Hey ik u dont care but i wanted to let you know! george and lore are dating!" "i hope your proud for her!" NO!! I HATE LORE. AND I STILL LIKED HIM.. SO I TELL ALL MY FRIENDS AND I START TO COPE. THE NEXT DAY.. i tell rihanna and she says,, "lets ask daniel he likes me soss hell ask george for me"... daniel asked him... george told him.. "i dont have a gf but i got pulled" did i get pissed?! yes, i did but i dont care... i told all my friends again!! and so we arent sure if tehir dating,,, im so not sure of what to do,,, and thats where this thing ends!! i hope you enjoyed because my life is so sad. imma go cope again