Notes

Alright. So you'll probably be asleep still when i send this. And you probably won't see this until later on today when you wake up. But i just wanted to say how much I love you. I think you are one of the greatest girls i have ever met. You're so sweet and kind to me. You don't care about me being kinda slow. And you don't judge me. I thought you were beautiful before I even saw what you looked like. Like god was like "Hey, let me send this majestic (< if thats how you spell it) being down to earth where she can brighten peoples days up and make others happy". And thats exactly what you do. Every time you smile, laugh, make a joke, or just talk to me- it brightens up my day more then any kind of cosplay, book, music, or whatever I do that usually makes me happy. I almost immediately fell for you. A few days later, maybe two or three, i realized those feelings. They made me feel weird since I'm not used to people in general, but they weren't bad. Those feelings led to a lot of questions with myself. I wondered a lot if or when I should tell you. I tried to think of how you would respond and what you would say.. and I'm glad it went good, because i would've been heart broken if it ruined our friendship. Today when we talked, i didn't feel scared like I usually do... I actually talked to you like it was nothing, which was weird because I have high anxiety and shit when it comes to talking (hence the selective mutism). So I was overly excited that I found somebody I could talk too, even though i have a problem with talking. I know I'm not the best at saying things out loud so I just decided to type it for you instead. This way, if you're ever feeling down, you can read it, and be reminded of how much i care. I wish I was there to show you how much I want to be with you. I wanna hug you and cuddle and, and give you kisses. I wanna have tickle fights with you (even if I get punched in the face on accident), and I wanna watch anime or cartoons with you while we cuddle, I wanna make things for you and take you out on dates. We can even make pillow forts and do stupid things. We can also just sit with each other in bed and talk, or lay outside on a blanket and do the same thing (if the bugs aint bad, i don't want you getting ate up by mosquitoes). I wish I was there
with you right now so i could cuddle with you while we sleep. But sadly i can't. Sometimes i wanna just, drive over there and take care of your needs, kick those kids asses for messing with you, care for you when your sick, hold you when you're feeling sad or lonely. and maybe/hopefully one day i can do that. until then though, I'll be right here. I know sometimes i won't be online but when that happens just read this and our conversations. I love you and everything about you. I love your laugh and your smile, your short hair and freckles. I love your teeth and your eyes, your jokes and your silliness. I love everything about you. This may seem sappy but its the truth and I just wanted you to know that. I'll see you tomorrow/today/later beautiful.
<3 <3 <3 <3

((P.S)) I REALLY hope this doesn't wake you up in the middle of the night because that would fucking suck and I would feel awful.