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hey I am zuleikha zule for short call me what u want I don't mind I'm used to it. my life has been difficult since birth but I am 15 and oi guess what i live with my grandma and grandad are yu surprised I don't live with my birth parents long story short they both left for there own benefit did not even think about there kids not even one time but i do miss them my mum lives in paki she has a baby who is my step brother she never told me about him my grandma did I don't talk to my dad just mum sometimes . i am nearly 16 soon not soon but in 6 months February 8 hehe u can come everyone is invited . I guess no one will show but oh well. i am a quite girl but loud when i wanna be. I got a lot of things going on see your gonna wonder why I'm not typing on my phone its because i need a break and im tired so i was like lets type here also my phone is in a blue box and its swished of good luck finding it anyways ima probably go on it tomorrow and see how it goes. your wondering why because there is a boy named Zain who makes my life harder everyday kasmeh I hate it its like he thinks everything is about him when its rlly not trust me i have feelings he don't even ask he just puts all the blame and his problems on me like how do u expect me to handle it everyone thinks hes a good guy u dont even know him trust me and yesterday we had an argument and i just let it all out and he still thinks he dont push me away he pushes me away on a daily its not a new thing i know but consider zain others have feelings as well and he ruins mine everyday and makes me feel like shit he can have zarah and aliya he lied to me saying he removed ever girl no he has not what's the poing fake loving me acting like he cares about me if u did u would have done everything u would have asked me on a daily if im okay u would have removed every girl for me but u was useless like the rest of them. ya Allah I'm trying im also tired. but there is a man hes no boy hes not useless and he is my best friend he likes me and im not sure if i feel the same about him he is the most nicest human ive ever meet he is so kind he helps when stuff go bad in my life he is always there. his name is usman he is no zain they are like diffrent people usman dont only think about him self and thats what i love he is pretty af mashallah no nazr on him. ya allah i wanna marry someone like him who dont lie who is straight up i dont wanna marry someone who lies about his whole life and wont be straight up and talks to others. usman is a most genuine guy ive meet but im scared to meet him what if he dont like me what if he thinks im ugly kasmeh im scared but inshallah its me and himm in the end but i want to lose zain i want him to leave i will feel pain and i know i wont be able to handle it i know i will cry with an ocean of tears kasmeh im scared i wanted zain to stay ive tried but while trying i give up while trying for someone who cant show love and yeh blame me ofc what else can u do. lets forget this im glad i took a break cos the only thing i need is food namaz allah usman and sleep and my teddies. before u laugh yes i am a child who loves teddies what can i say. guess what he folows my sisyter the preety oneee bhahshsh
DOEN BYE