Notes

Yeah i know that we are just friends

But i started loving you in the end

I want to tell you how i feel but you wont comprehend

Were the perfect blend

Staying up all night just to talk

Not even paying attention to the clock

I love to hear you laugh and see you smile
Dont just be mine for a while

I want you to be my new life style

Im tired of being alone

Im tired of being in this fucking friend zone

Every time you tell me about a new guy

I just want to break down and cry

And when he breaks your heart i say
Everything will be alright

If im not with you im out there getting high

You left me for him this last 4th july

I told you it was cool

I was so hurt just wanted to hang myself and kick the stool

Last week at school

Didn't even say hi cus you were with him

Now were on the phone and your saying fuck tim

Hes a fuck boy thats what your telling me
All i do is agree

Telling me you wish there were more guys like me

Now does that even make sense

Lets just be more than friends

Thats what i said

And all she did was leave me on read

Couple weeks pass by and i see her at the mall

I was going to say hi but i felt like the oddball

So i gave her a call

Her friend picked up and said she Dont want to tall to you anymore

My heart just tore

Didn't even want to live anymore

So i ran to the drug store for some pills

I was right on time for my refills

Got home and wrote letters to all the people that i loved

After i was done just layed there in my death bed

Swallowed all the pills to drop dead

My mom came into my room to ask me how was school

All she saw was me lying there unconscious

She stood there thoughtless

I cant believe i did this to my mom im heartless

All i remember was being rushed to the hospital

Drs saying it was going to be impossible
To bring me back to life

I knew i had to fight for mom

My heart was like a ticking time bomb

In a few days i was up and awake

I couldn't believe it and my heart didn't ache

Ran to her house to let her know i was okay

Knocking on the door her mom answers

I broke down in tears when she told me she died of cancer

She handed me a letter she left behind

It said

I hope you can forgive me i loved you too

I was sick and i didn't want to leave you

I wish you the best you'll make it through