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i'll start off with the basic. i miss you and i get depressed when i see you, cause i feel like you don't care about me. and i immediately think that you want nothing to do with me or that you think i'm very annoying (i know that i can be annoying). it's just i've never felt close to anyone in school because i've always been the loner and no one would ever talk to me. i'm trying my best to stop being clingy (in other words) and to move on, but i can't seem to get the grip of it and move forwards. it's difficult for me to do so and well i still care about you even though we don't talk or see each other. i've always been that type of person to keep an eye on the people who have impacted my life, even if it made a small change to my life. sometimes i just want to text you without any awkwardness in between us, but i can't cause i feel like it's wrong for me to do so. other days, i want things to go back the way they were, but it's the past and i can't do anything for that to happen. i'll only have the memories from the past, but it has a strong impact on me and i'll be depressed. and sometimes i have doubts about the things we told each other, it sounds bad, i know. but i'll remember that i trusted you back then, so i still trust you to this day. well, i wanted to talk things over one last time, because i need to let out my emotions. i didn't let out my emotions to you that day we broke up, but maybe that's why i wrote this. it's been killing me slowly in the inside, but i try not to let it impact me on the outside. i hate that i just let out my emotions to you, but i just needed to and to know how you would react. i'm sorry for having sent this, i'm sorry if this is too much for you, but just know that i care a whole lot and don't worry about responding. thank you for reading this, even if this is stupid coming from me (well in my opinion i feel like it's stupid).