Notes

it's been 5 days since we broke up, it's almost a week without you. i miss you. I miss our laughs, our genuine smiles, our sweetness, i miss how we care for each other. i miss us. i miss everything about you, about us. it hurts me a lot seeing you at school doing fine and not caring at all. it's like you didn't love me. am i just your game? i wonder if you at least sometimes thought of me like how i thought of you. there's not a day that i haven't thought of you, it makes me crazy. sometimes i ask myself? it is my fault? was in selfish and insensitive towards your feelings? why is it so easy for you to let me go? maybe i was prudent. i wonder if you're hurting and suffering like how i am right now. it broke me down to pieces when you left. you have no idea how much i broke down to tears when you were breaking up with me. it did end well for you, yes, a happy break up because i was super jolly and cheerful that day. but behind all of those, you have no idea how much it hurt me. it's like my soul was being shuttered into pieces. i've lost motivation. do you remember when i said if we break up i won't enter relationships again? i was serious. really serious. you gave me the biggest trauma that i was aware of. but you only, you're the only one i want to lend my heart with. even if it means breaking my heart again and again, you are still the one i want. i'd always make a way just to be home to you. you may be thinking, this is just a phase, i mean maybe. i still can't move on, im really pressured. up to this date im still hoping you'd come back, just one text from you makes my heart jump in excitement. will you ever come back though? i am willing to wait for you even if it has no direction, no assurance that you'd come back.