Notes

My name is Emily i noticed the world is a shit hole some people think running away from your problems will be easier but the truth is. It will not get easier it will just get harder after days and days people don't know how this world works at all I wish there was peace and everything was so calming but nothing will be and it never will be a humans brain is always gonna start wars if they like it or not I know jesus died for our sins and forgiving us but why can some people stop with the smocking, the drinking, the vaping even if life gets hard still they cant let that shit onto them or on there bodies is very bad they could die I wish I, me, Emily I wish I could help everyone for their mistakes and fixing their thinking and making them stop doing all those bad things I wish I had the power to protect the world and make it work and stop wars stop everything like problems they don't really have to runaway from their problems if they just talk with someone and ask them for help even so they wont do that I know its hard I wanna cry and pray for those people who are dying and doing bad stuff to their bodies all the murder all the abusing all the bullying all the yelling I just want this world to get better but it just wont even if I trick my own mind that it will get better it will still know and make me the depression one that made no sense my brain cant handle all the pain that all people have everyday I just keep learning more and more about humans how they are how they act how their brains works I'm a human too I feel pain myself too I wish I didn't and didn't had problems of my own but that's how life goes it repeats the cycle and it will keep repeating it cause the world doesn't know how to help themselves not even humans not even their own like right now I felt it the emotion I thought so many bad things my silly brain thought i did something wrong but i didn't actually if i did what could have been? a humans heart and brain is connected by loving that person you feel a lot emotions even if you didn't wanted to. To the point you wanna do so many things for them and make them smile so much and be happy together like right now i wanted to cry for my partner cause just wish i could help him i want him to smile brighter loving someone is a responsibility it might be hard but at least they fight wars with you and stay and stick with you forever this is probably not the same for others they either just love someone out of choice instead of getting to know them but i really did get to know I'm and know all his acts I'm still learning everyday about human love and him it feels weird sometimes it feels like loving someone and being in a relationship with them feels like you made a bad choice dating them cause your scared of what might happen if you lose that 0person and i don't wanna lose that person i don't wanna lose him his like a angel but hie doesn't that know that yet cause he hasn't seen the right world and fixing his problems with someone helping him i wwanna cry so bad and so loudly but i don't wanna show my weakness even so crying shows that your brave and strong cause you feel something that a person should feel and very brave to cry in front of that person.

Now This is My Diary
My name is Emily G :)