Notes

Hey. hi
hope tmhara office shi jaa rha, I mean okay it's just one day but a day well spent maybe like comeon you're working! bitch you're a man now. lol just kidding so yes my best wishes as you know are always with you. Because it's just I love you obviously I do a lot, a whole lot you can't even have an idea of how much. So got along well with other employees? if not I am sure you will, it might take few days to settle up in the workaholic environment but I know you will! Because it's you! and you are nice nice so yeah okay hehe. I know this is new of me to write a notepad but okay, so I wanted to say that... first of sorry, sorry if I somehow break my promise, sorry that I hid what I felt, sorry if I ever messed up and sorry for the bewkoofis I've done. I didn't have the guts to talk to you about this because I knew I won't be able to make you understand and act like a fool. I always nag about things always complaining but what do I do I've gotten this way and I can't help. I feel like my life and I are pretty fucked up I know everyone's fucked up like who is not right? and that I just make a fuss about it, hm I actually am not in my senses or what may or may not be, all I got to say is I make a fuss because it's too much for me you know like too much I don't know yes I am stupid and crying over small things but what do I do I can't help it., it's just eating me, has eaten me I am done I am literally done yes because of my dad obviously I don't know what to do I am destroyed devastated dead scattered I don't want anything now I want to end everything with me it's just getting too much for me to take in. I hate my dad fr I never liked him never!! he was never like baap heh sabka baap bakchod hota hai mera baap toh baap kehlane laayak nhi hai all I can say is I cannot explain what I feel but if you want to know swap lives for just 2days and it would be sufficient, still it won't be enough. I am suffering him for years I have crossed my capacity! I don't know I just want to kill myself now I don't wanna think about myself I don't wanna talk to anyone I don't wanna get well I don't want anything. well too much of saying let's come to the point so this is basically going to be the last note from me if it ever reached you, I wish I don't have to forward it you today, tomorrow or any day but if I do so I am sorry I am sorry for breaking the promise, I know am the bad guy but trust me I tried hard to stay but lost I did fight with myself but couldn't make it I am done with my life dad made it so beautiful that I got overwhelmed with it so overwhelmed that I had to do it. I must be looking selfish, call me selfish but I did think of everyone couldn't do anything about it sorry I am sorry for being selfish sorry. Listen if I do forward this message to you wait for one day if I don't contact you within one day ask Krrish where I am you'll know then cuz he lives in the same building so heh and yess also I love you and I know you love me too I won't say try to forget me but yes dummy life doesn't stop understand you're getting what you want yeah not in a chilled way but ok I be there or not you have to keep going you get that right the time I spent with you are the best I am happy that we happened sadly we couldn't meet but I don't feel sad about it because it never felt like you were away from me you always felt to be with me everytime I used to keep thinking about you. Sorry that I didn't talk about it I just couldn't, you I don't want you to do stupid things, for me live a good life with no excess load you always deserved a better girl than me and you eventually will but we are not breaking up so if I become a ghost I'll come to you okay don't worry won't freak you out lol I'll protect you from other ghosts. Hey be happy okay I love your precious smile don't get sad over me I would hate that you know right you my prettiest,cutest,loveliest,sexiest and the hottest dummy only mine! you always made me feel loved and always took care of me,you're the best I could ever get thank you for choosing me out of many hehe. I would hate sadness on your face I know you will be worried after reading this but life goes on misterr I will forever be with you, because I love you and my love for you never died it's just me if it happened so like i might die but love for you won't be happy and live nicely happily doing things that you like, you'll do it right for me? I know you'll do it for me aunty ka dhyaan rkhna aur khud ka bhi because you dumb hehe and train mei multiple alarms but why the fuck do you need train now use flights you kothi bangla wale log, yess missed a badminton match with you hehe lol I may sound stupid rn but ok leme say this if by chance if the fate and all those rebirths are true, let's meet again! I am happy that I met you and fell for you. Today is 15 yes I won't forwad this to you today naah because I won't do anything today I'll wait for somedays if I somehow again act normal I would delete the notepad after that but if I don't I might delete myself these are the crucial days hmm sorry I am sorry I love you. with loads of love.
Your madam, cutie
Shakshiii

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