Notes

I'm losing my feelings for you Sam, I'm afraid because there's nothing you can do to maintain it... I really wish that you never like me back because all the spark and excitement has disappeared. I like you but this is not the perfect time, I don't see you the way i saw you before. I mean i like you because your handsome, tall, kind, gentleman, and caring but i was never sure if you were loyal to me, nag paparinig kasi si jezzaine, cheater ka daw, babaero, two timer, I'm sorry i should trust you pero i have trust issues and doubts. Sometimes those turns out to be true. I want myself to let you go but i can't because something is holding me back. I want to be an independent woman, the woman who doesn't need anyone to treat her because she feels bad when someone uses/spends their money because of her but then again i don't want to be alone, lonely, in a shadow, and feel leftout, i always feel lonely everytime kasama ko sila daryelle and cheska, minsan kasi they act like sila lng yung magkaibigan and i guess i was just THERE. Watching them laugh, leave, study, and bond together without me... i guess its kind of okay because I'm used to it, they let me get used to it rather Hhaha. How funny, My two friends became close because of me and now they don't even want me. Well uhmm we can say that we still hangout but not like before. If I'm being honest, i regret letting them meet but that would be selfish of me. Atleast I'm there when they need help or want comfort and advices but i always feel like I'm just an option.. *do they ever noticed?*, *are they really happy without me?*, *did they already noticed but never really cared?* maybe I'm just being delusional?