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before you read this message please try to listen to the song or listen to the song while reading the message .. i feel like it will helps . before you read this message try to listen to the song or listen to the song while reading the message .. i feel like it will help. https://youtu.be/lqSWq_hjfbg?t=5
its called easy to love by novel .. i was listening to it all day and also while writing this .



first and for most .. im so happy that we were able to pull through everything and even make it to 10 months nun stop .like this is so crazy considering all the things we had to do to be and stay together and all the things that happened while we was together.. im happy that i found someone who understands me and accepts me, like really accepts me, for who i am .. at frist it was hard to trust u .. i didnt believe in us or a future ever in us. i just thought u know we were just a lil fun hookup and just there to entertain each other . i didnt think you were serious enough in me to love me . but over some time i got to know who the real patrick was . and i do admit to me not accepting u at first and wanting to change u .. and i am soory for that but i felt it was risky for me to get my self (heart) invloved with u .. but u ended up changing for the better .. for yourself of course . and because of that i feel deeper in love with you . i learned to tear all my walls down and to let the past go . u showed me that love was deeper than a txt or paragraph a day . you showed me and gave me confidence in myself . you showed me how beautiful i was . you cared for me and u still do and i appreciate u so much . now that i completely fallen for you its so hard formme to de-attach myself. thats why i get so sensitive when we do get into stuff . patrick i never met someone who ever loved me like u . or made me feel the way you do . althought u can be 100% annoying and a pain in my ass ... i rather have that everyday then even think of a momment losing u and i know i always say if u do this and if u do that then im going to leave but i dont think i can. im commited to us all the way till the end .. but im not going to lie ... i anit tyring to start anything or whine bu=out anything but i been really feeling lonley and i miss u like crazy .. it hurts me when we dont talk and when we do we talk like strangers ... ion uunderstand how we can stay on the phone til 3 am in the morning goofing around to know where we cant even talk on the phone for 3 minutes . i just want the connection back and i know 80% of it is bc we dont get to see each other . but mom dont even let me go to estem no more and claudia starting school for prof. hair so she cant be my ride to stuff no more and i know u dont have a car and its hard for u to get a ride but i really miss u and i reaalyy want to see u like me just getting to hold u again will be everything for me . like literally ill forget about everything and not ask for nothing else ,, i just want to be under your arms for atleast on more time i miss u so much ...*im in tears * like baby , PATRICK I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF , I LOVE YOU PATRICK . IM RIDING WITH YOU THE FULL WAY , THROUGH IT ALLL. OUR LOVE IS FOREVER 030215.