Notes

Lenu! I’m going to try to make you blush, but not like how you think I am! I’m not going to be sexual, but I’m going to try to do it my way! I’m going to sit here and talk about you.

First off, Lenu, do you know how happy you make me? I’ve actually written about you for my journaling time. You think I’m kidding, but out of everything I could write about, including a prompt, I wrote about you for ten minutes because I was always thinking about you. You’re worth it, you know? And no, this isn’t just to make you blush, this is also because I want you to be happy and I want you to know how much you mean to me, and why you’re worth so much happiness, okay?

School is about to start soon with homework, and you’re going to be overloaded with stress. And sometimes, you might feel alone and tired, and like there’s no point, but I wrote this because I wanted you to have something to remind you that I’m always here for you, and that you mean something. I wanted you to know that you’re not just a number or a statistic or an online persona. You’re Lenu, a living person, and I’m Dia, a living person, and Dia wants Lenu to be happy. So, I’m going to reiterate what I’ve been already telling you, but I’m going to make it official in a post.

I’m going to try to name everything I like about you, but honestly, I can’t write forever, so I’ll shorten it to a few traits. I wrote a one page love letter to you once, and I’m going to write something longer this time. Because the more I found out about you, the more I loved about you and so, this one is going to be long.

Lenu, I like your laugh. It’s full of joy and shameless, and whenever you laugh, I’m always happy. Your laugh fills me with warmth and joy. I want to wrap you up in blankets and do all your homework for you, and feed you food and give you all my money, because you deserve it. You are so full of life, and people love that about you. I love that about you, but I love everything about you. I could go on, and on, but I have to remind myself that I’m talking about your laugh. Your laugh tells a lot about you, and it makes me happy to hear you laugh. I don’t know how to describe it, but it’s a really, really cute laugh. Your laugh is so vivacious it makes me wonder how colorful the rest of you are.

Another thing I love about you is how full of life you are. I had to make a new paragraph or else I would add it with your laugh. But I especially love how you always have a joke, or how you’re always laughing. And it makes me really, really sad realizing that someone so beautiful also gets run over by life. I worry about you, you know. I can’t help it, I know you’re fully capable, but I want you to be happy so much, I’m willing to sacrifice pride and friendship. If you’re alright, I don’t care how clingy I seem or how nosy I am. You are so vivid, so bright, it’s almost blinding. People like that about you. Lily is optimistic, but you’re different. You’re so different from everyone else, and it’s beautiful. You smile and you laugh, and it’s so human, and I love that about you Lenu. I love how full of personality you are. I love the fact I can’t describe your personality fully to everyone, and I love how intricate your way of thinking is. It’s really fantastic, you know? I can’t even put your personality to words, and I can’t always guess what you’re like, because you’re so full of contradictions and wonder that it’s too much for an average human mind to comprehend. And, I love it so much. You deserve happiness, and I can’t stress that enough. I want you to go to sleep smiling, because you feel loved, because you know you’re going to be okay. Lenu, I would do anything to keep that smile on your face. You’re smart, you’re intelligent, and you’re so sociable. People are naturally attracted to you, and I admire you greatly. You’re absolutely precious. People like you, the energetic and ones that smile, are the ones that deserve the most protection and I will defend you to my last breath, just you watch ok ok ok

Thirdly, I really like how to the point you are. When you want something, you bring it up. That’s something I like, because it’s almost completely unique to you. Most people passive aggressively mention it (me) or end up suppressing it (also me), because they’re too shy to bring it up. But you are completely different, and I love, love, love that about you. You’re not being pushy; you’re getting across what you want. Please, please don’t ever change that. It’s something I completely look up to you. I want to be like you, Lenu. I want to be able to do that like you. This trait is something that’s always stuck with me because it’s so unique to you. It’s the way you bring it up and you address it that makes me really, really love you. It’s not easy to explain, but I feel so, so proud of you whenever you do it. You’re brave and you’re bold, and I love that.

Fourthly, I love how affectionate you are with words. I love how you can tell something they’re cute completely out of the ordinary. I love how you can always compliment someone. Heck, I’m a sucker for your compliments, because they mean so much. I never know what to say, because I don’t know how to compliment you. I can never have enough compliments for you. I can never paint a picture as eloquently as I would like. I am so, so, so proud of you, Lenu and the person you are. I love how so many people can just fall in love with you. I also love how genuine you are. You don’t tolerate any BS. You said that you wouldn’t date because they like you. I really like that, because you’re taking the relationship seriously. It’s something I find deeply beautiful, and wonderful. You’re really mature in your own way, you know. I love how you use the heart emoji so often. That really warms my heart, because I get to remember how lucky I am to be able to meet someone so full of love. I love how you don’t use pet names like Tease, but you use “bbu” or “bae”. It’s so affectionate and good-natured and easy, it makes me feel warm and bubbly. It’s honestly quite adorable how you do that. It’s always the small things that mean the biggest.

Fifthly, I love how full of contradictions you are. You’re always surprising me, you know. I honestly, honestly don’t know how to describe this, but I have an impression of you, and you blow it immediately away. It means a lot, because it shows how human you are. How utterly imperfect you are makes you all the more beautiful. You’re perfect to me, Lenu, in the fact that you aren’t perfect. I love how you always manage to surprise me and I love how I can never expect something from you. I love the fact you keep me on my toes.

Sixthly, I love how enthusiastic you get. For instance, playing Elsword, you didn’t just become good, you became amazing. And don’t even argue; you are amazing at Elsword. Like when you make a character and shamelessly talk about them, I just want to cry because you’re such a beautiful person. So much passion. Genuinely, it’s one of the best traits I see in people. They have such enthusiasm for the little things in life, and how your characters are like your own ideas into place. They’re also creative and colorful, and they remind me of you in a way. You’re something beautiful enough to be a tragedy.

Seventhly, I love how much friends mean to you. Despite the fact that I royally suck at Elsword, you’ve been nothing but encouraging. Despite the fact I’m always apologizing and saying stupid things, you never lose your patience with me. Despite the fact that I can’t spar to save me life, you still encourage me to spar. You’ve said that Elsword is fun because friends are playing it with you, and that makes my heart melt every time. It’s really touching to see how patient you are with me, and how you’ll listen to me ramble on and on. I like how supportive you are, and you’re always encouraging me, not just with Elsword, but to finish homework or to finish a form. You’re always a constant in my life. If I could only name one person that I know that I trust and I could rely on, I would choose you. You’re always a part of my day to day, and I would genuinely, 100000% say that I would not have it otherwise. The fact that you take time out of your day to talk to me means so much to me. You wouldn’t believe it.

Here, I’m breaking off, not because there’s not more to talk about, because I haven’t even touched upon your humor or your ability to be an amazing listener, which are both things that I really love about you, but I wanted you to know that when you’re sad, alwayhs remember that people love you. Lenu, you’re completely unique, and beautiful. I don’t know how much times I can say this, but I need to emphasize it. There will never, ever be anyone like you. If more people were like you, the world would be a better place. You can do so much, you know! You have tons of talent. I want you to find happiness, because I know you deserve it. I feel so happy I got to become friends with you for a year. And my friendships usually last half a year, max. But you’re special; you’re someone I want as a friend forever. If anyone makes you unhappy, I will probably punch them in the face, either metaphorically or literally. It’s okay to be sad; I understand that life is busy. You might need a break or a rest, and I want you to take a break. I want you to be healthy. Take a drink of water, take a nap. It’s always okay to take a nap. If you need help with school, I’ll help you. I’ll give you little tricks that got me through the day.

Listen, Lenu, everything is going to be just fine! If there’s something you’re freaking out about, give it three days. A lot of thigns can get fixed in 72 hours. I’m telling you this, because I know for sure stress is something that you’ll be seeing. I know that you’ll be freaking out over homework. And you don’t deserve any of that. I don’t like seeing you sad. It makes me sad. It makes me really, really sad, because you don’t deserve it. You don’t deserve any of it. Lenu, I want you to be happy enough to sell my soul in all honesty. I sat here, and I spent nearly 30 minutes, I think, writing an essay gushing creepily on about how cool you were, because you deserve to know this. Even the common person deserves to know that someone cares, and you’re so, so much more than just a common person. You’re someone completely special, and lovely. I don’t care if this didn’t make you blush, but I wanted you to know that you are treasured.

Lastly, Lenu, I love you because you’re Lenu. I love those things about you , because it’s part of you.